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Its raining outside
The droplets drip down from the shingles in a melodic rhythm
And It puts my thoughts to sleep
Staring at the night’s reflection in that tiny little puddle
It shows me a perspective I’ve been too blind to see
My doors have been shut tight
My curtains have been drawn
Its still dark in my room
But nothings really new.

I smiled when the lightning flickered through the sky
Three days without you
And I didn’t cry
And until now I haven’t even mentioned you
I haven’t thought about you
I haven’t wrote you
Or cared
But my head still pounds with the unfairness of my affection
And my heart still tingles in the chill without your warmth
My laughter has been weak without your tender jokes and touches
And my sight has been dim without your light to guide
And she sees you in a way that only I can see you
And she kisses you in a way that I cannot
And you hold her closer to you than any have been allowed
And you glow in such a way only when she enters the room
And I’m okay

Sure it hurts
And others notice
But I’m okay
Because I know that with her you are truly happy
And with you I am too
And though I may never HAVE you
I can still be happy knowing that you can have me
A sick comfort
A sad hope
A small wish for the stars to ponder
But what else is new?
Another roar of thunder
Another crack of light
And the sky turns back to darkness
And the clouds block out the night
But I’m still okay

If I had to give myself a reason not to love you
Or a reason to hate her
I couldn’t do it.
She is special as you are special
And I must sit back and give her that moment
And to avoid seeing her in your arms will only make it worse
Because not accepting reality only makes it that much harder when you have to
So what If it’s not fair
Nothing really is anymore
Nothing ever will be in this world

Its raining outside tonight
And my music is put on pause
My mirror shows me things I don’t want to see
And my mind is calm and tired
My love, you’re somewhere locked away
And you dream of your love, I’m sure
But that’s okay
Cause I dream of you
But I wish not for my dreams to come true