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How will you change yourself?
I don't usually type like this, but here goes... I've been thinking a lot about life, death, and change lately. Through recent experience, I've decided that I'm going to resolve to change for the better. It's a little late for resolutions, I know, but follow me none the less. And please leave a comment to answer my question.
I'm going to change myself by, firstly, having recently experienced the death of a friend's mother, appreciate life. By that I mean, I'm going to enjoy myself more, take more risks, go out on a limb, be bold, be ambitious, be spontanious. I'm sick of being a**l and repetitive. I'm going to speak my thoughts, I'm going to voice what I think, I'm going to show my backbone. I'm going to say something knowing I'll get opposition. When I listen to music, I'm no longer going to crank the volume down when somebody drops a nice big "********".
I'm going to make myself more professional. I'm going to keep clean cut and straight edged. I'm going to keep my spot on the honor roll. I'm going to keep being myself.
I'm going to make myself known. Even if I have to act out or speak out. I'd rather be known as that weird kid than that kid that never talks. I no longer care what people think. I know who my friends are, and I don't need anybody else's approval.
I'm going to do more for myself. I'm going to do more with my friends. When a girl likes me, and I like her back, I'm not going to stir and stew on it, not being able to decide. I'm going to go our with her. I stopped dating for over a year just because I had a bad experience. I'm going to stop being afraid of rejection and crying out for approval.
I've had many internal struggles with religion lately. My church falling into pieces and an inspirational video I recently watched have thrown my view on it into perspective. I'm a good person, no matter what anybody says. I don't need to show up at church and go through the motions to be considered a good person, nor do I need to wear a cross or read the bible. I'm not renouncing my faith, but I'm not saying I'm a Christian. I'm going to spend less time wondering what's going to come out of religion and spend that time bettering myself. In other words, for now, I'm putting the books where they belong and doing something with myself. If, by chance I'm led back to the alters one day, or I'm led further away from them at that, is up to fate.
I'm going to be more confident. I'm not going to be afraid to be happy with myself. I'm done with cynicism. There is enough of that to go around.
That's pretty much what I plan to do for myself. Anybody reading this, do you have plans to change yourself? How do you plan to? Do you want to better yourselves? Let me know.
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