It all started with a glance.
I looked at her and she walked towards me.
And that's how this story starts..
About a girl entering my world of focus, dedication.. and hurt.
I didn't expect her to smile at me, since all I gave people were frowns.
She smiled at me.
I ignored it.
I got irritated, having people smile at me; I was annoyed by it.
It reminded me of the time my previous lover humiliated me real bad.
The worst thing about it was that she even smiled when she said it was over.
I see her often in the hallways of my school.
I would always catch her looking at me.
Whenever I glance at her, even for a split second, she smiles.
Until she finally decides to talk to me.
She introduced herself to me.
I decided to accept her greetings in a polite manner.
After that moment, she kept coming over to wherever I sat to start really random conversations.
I got annoyed.
I wanted to study.
I wanted to focus.
I couldn't do it having her sit beside me all the time.
So I yelled.
Insulted her.
Hurt her deeply.
That's when she leaves the picture.
I get back at my work, but I couldn't focus.
Then I noticed.
She didn't come back to sit around when she passed by.
I got used to her..
I couldn't get her off my mind for reasons I couldn't explain..
There was one explanation that I didn't want myself to admit.
And that was missing her.
So I've been stuck.
Confused.
I've realized something strange.
The unthinkable.
I might have fallen for her.
I see her walking around with this guy often.
Walking around the hallways laughing and having a good time.
Shes found herself someone that could have been me.
She doesn't even look at me anymore.
Then I tried to do something to forget.
I've tried to stop my heart from calling out for her.
A heart that I could have gave a second chance to from the hurt its been through.
All this heated rage inside me that I've kept in all this time.
I could of gave it to her.
I could of gave it another shot.
I've decided not to hurt anyone anymore.
In the end, all I have really been hurting.. was I.
But this feelings I have now developed for her will stay this time..
In my heart and mind.
Keeping a replica of her tender face as a treasured memory
So that when it is time to close my eyes
I'd see her smiling at me again just like how she did before.
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