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“What if I don’t want to go?” I asked.

They both laughed. We were almost home now. We lived in a high rise apartment building. My dad always joked about being to close to Heaven for his liking.

“No, I’m serious, I don’t want to go!” I yelled.

Silence.

“I didn’t like doing what I did today. I don’t want to be evil, I want to be normal.” I explained.

“You can’t be normal.” My mother replied, her voice dead and stale.

“You need to understand who you are,” My dad spat, “You’re evil, just like me.”

My dad had been human before he died, completely human. When he died he was really messed up on drugs, and when he had to choose between re-birth and living on earth but for darkness… well you know.

My mother, however, had always been evil. She didn’t, and would never, know what it was like to be human; to have a clean soul. And neither would I.

“If he doesn’t want to go…“ She began.

“He’s going.” My father stated, successfully ending the conversation.



When I got back to my room I tossed my cell phone on the bed and locked my door. I was done. I fell onto my bed and stared up at the ceiling. My phone buzzed against my leg, it was a text from Stella.

Hey, what’s up?

I smiled, if only she knew. I wished I could tell her, to simply have someone to talk to about it with. But sadly, I had come to solid terms with the fact that it was never going to happen.

Nothing much, how about you? I texted back.

Oh, you know, homework and stuff. What’s wrong? She shot back.

I laughed, she knew I was hating, even through a text message.

Um… nothing. Why?

Your spelling words out and forgetting those creepy smiley things : D

You mean these ---> : -)

Ha-ha, yup ; )

I might be going on a trip is all.

How long? : /

Well, it’s more like I’m moving.

Oh, where?

I stopped. There was no way I could lie to her like that. I let the text go unanswered and rolled over. The truth was, I was thinking about Dean. About how it felt when I let the rage take over. About the sick satisfying feeling it had given me when he fell. I was thinking about it, and I was wishing I could feel it again… forever.