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Well I guess I should start this all off from 7th grade, when something bad happened. I changed schools, gaaaaaaaar. New people, new s**t, new enemies. [excuse the profanity I will use.] My first year was somewhat eventful, for the mere fact I was new. I had one friend starting the year, my friend that was at the time in Japan, and ended with two more. Yeah I was an insane psychopathic cutter since I was in 5th grade and yes continue with your mainstream bickering. I stopped after I met someone and I really thank her for that. You see the real problem in 7th grade was that I was really close to someone and secretly had a HUGE DAMNED crush on her, but stupidly told her I had a crush on someone else. I couldn't take back my words so I lived with that, and I felt truly at peace for a while. When the summer came, I had to go, and that summer was one that changed so much while I was gone. That person had now ignored me now for some reason, and she even went to the extent of blocking me from her chatterbox. That pseudo crush became a useless drone, trying to get an in on the "in" crowd.

8th grade year, ********, just ********. I try to talk to that girl before I knew she was avoiding me, nothing. Pseudo crush and supposed good friend tries to pry secrets and spread them, gee wunderbar. I had some reason to become a psychopathic cutter [insert laff here](yes I know I spelled laugh wrong.) but I didn't. Pseudo tried to set me up with her friend Michelle, forcing me to go to the mall even. Meh I won't comment on that. Life like that was crap, then summer.

Summer, almost over as of now. And I made a small blip on my friend in Japan, Kimiko. I moderated a forum with her when we first met and it closed down [tear tear] We were still good friends of course, and unbeknownst to me she had a crush on me. When she told me I said I couldn't return her feelings and never gave her a reason as to why. She soon got a boyfriend, but they broke up when she moved to NorCal. I get to call her now, and recently she joined Gaia. Then I found out she still liked me, and a lot deeper than I thought. I told her I couldn't be with her because I've only seen her as a sister and could never love someone I couldn't touch. She deserves someone that can truly comfort her. So thats so far in a post.