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After so many emails involving this topic.. it's time I said how I felt about it.
Beauty, vanity, self-confidence. Not always feeling pretty. Being put down.
I know I talk alot of s**t and say exactly how I feel.. because I can actually think for myself. And EVERYONE needs to be like that. You may think self-esteem advice shouldn't come from someone who wears a full face of makeup, but you'd be wrong. I don't wear makeup and dress up because I HATE myself. I'm not trying to hide anything, because I let my insides show through. Every ******** day. I'm a strong believer in self-love. And I dont mean acting like a b***h and pretending your the best thing on earth, because no one is. But being confident get's you alot further then second guessing yourself and wishing you were someone else.

You may think celebrities are perfect but you should all know better then that. There's days when I don't feel beautiful. There's days when I lay in bed all day an sleep because I'm over everything. But that's just one moment in my life. It's just an experience you learn from. Sorry, but I love wearing NO makeup, sitting on my pink couch an eating ice cream while watching VH1. And do I feel any different then when I'm dressed up and in front of a camera? Honestly NO I don't because I'm still ME.

Has anyone ever called you ugly? I've been called every name you could think of. But I love it, because by being myself I'm opening up other people's closed minds. Because no one's opinions matter but YOUR OWN. If I cared what anyone thought of me, I wouldn't have gotten this far with my career at such a young age. Sadly, there isn't a pill you can swallow that makes you feel beautiful. Nothing's that easy. But when you really think about it.. nothing anyone says to you means anything. Because if YOU know who you are, then thats ok. Whether you're gay, bi, straight, anorexic, overweight, believe in something different.. it DOESNT matter if someone doesn't agree. I live in California. The place where everyone says they wanna move to.. but it's not that great. Everyones walking around with fake tits, fake a** implants, new noses, fake hair. And I'm not saying I don't participate in these things [becauseIdo] but LA and Orange County aren't perfect. They're ugly. And people say s**t to me all day long, look at me differently. SO WHAT.

If you're not being yourself because you're afraid, please stop.

There's nothing else to it. Let all your walls down and just realize you only live once. So don't let anyone judge you because you like something they don't.

You get one life. That's it. So if someone chooses to be a slut, a junkie, a Christian, a beauty queen, a prositute, a college student, a drop out, a mother.. DEAL WITH IT because its NOT your life. Maybe you don't care what I have to say and you can judge me all day long and say I'm nothing, but I KNOW I'm everything. I'm gonna say what you all want to [but dont], because I have the voice and the power to do it.

Whether you never look in the mirror, or you spend hours looking at yourself: go b***h, live it and love it.

XOXO

JEFFREE STAR



I'm what you need AKA the impossible dose

Some celebrities are manufactured by the system. Others beat the system and manufacture themselves. .

I'm NOT like those other girls. [Dearslutgirlwhosalwaysnaked:] They choose you because you're easy to come by and a quick high. they choose you in larger masses because you're safer and relenting and can be taken in larger doses. they choose you because you're easy on the mind and none too thick in solution. they choose you because you're closer to home and not much different than all the rest of them. they choose you because you're cheap.

for all those reason, they [don't] choose me. for all those reasons, they hear my goddamn name and they run. talk in whispers. mention it muffled because their cupped hands and warn one another "no seriously don't ******** with that".

They [don't] choose me because I'm easy to find but hard to obtain. they [don't] choose me because I'm more than a minor addiction and have a tenyearshelflife of an aftertaste. they [don't] choose me because I'm incurable once inflicted. they [don't] choose me because I'm impossible to turn your back on, they [don't] choose me because everything else is a fivecent high afterwards. filler. echo. copy. lifted. dilluted.

a waste.

They [don't] choose me, and when they do, they don't talk about it. Can't talk about it. They [don't] choose me, but when they do it's the nervosa of shakes that whisper out their mouths on the subject. They [don't] choose me, but when they do they know how special and few they are.


so let them come and let them choose you, because they can't handle me.