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So all is well in my life, but nothing's right. No matter what i do, I'm never happy with the outcome. I feel completely alone and separated from anyone that i love.I'm far to different to fit in with my old crowd now. I've changed. I'm not the same immature little twit i was a year or two ago. I'm much more adult, and for that I'm called "fake" and "stuck up". Bull s**t. I just don't understand the joy in being childish anymore. I've come to a point in my life where i need something more. Drugs and alcohol seem to fill the void but only temporarily. They obviously cannot fix my problems. The fact that i am in danger of falling into addiction is worse. I'm sick of my friends telling me i'm trying to be somebody i'm not. I think i know who i am before they do and they're criticism is arbitrary considering they never took the time to know who i really am in the first place. My love life is non existant, and at home i'm either hated or invisible. i hate that everyone hate's who i've become. Especially when I'm finally okay with myself.