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The last thoughts


The secret pain that hides behind a false glimmer of a smile,
Thoughts that have neer been thought before twisting my mind, strangling it into bitter confusion,
An unknown feeling, an emotion not felt before ripping my heart up from within its core,
Reviewing all that has been since such happyness started, till when it was devoiured by selfish sin,
Greed from within my deepest self pity,
Giving into the temptation of evil, lusting after those who cannot defend,
A ******** frozen heart consuming the one thing i cared about,
The one thing i ******** loved,
Thown away with one stupid mistake,
People with their sympathy driving me into a state of guilt where the world seems to fade, and all my past mistakes come back to huant me,
As I sit in trying to let out the emotions i kept locked u for so long

The day you left seems like jus an hour ago,
As i pushed you away, told you to leave,
Where as in my heart all i wanted was for you to say, "i forgive you",
I grieve my loss as if a death of a loved one,
But in my soul, i secrety know, I wish, I hope your happy,
As for once in my life, some-one elses happyness is the one thing keeping me sane,
Keeping me from doing what i've always done,
Cutting the pain away.

Through thes sleepless nights all i think is of you, and what i did,
why i did it, why couldnt i stop, why did i give in, why ******** every basturd thing up!
And with each string of thought, another emerges as i beleive i'm reaching the answer, an eternal spiril in my mind,
And as the tears i wish to cry nearly touch the surface,
A cowardly force within my core pushes the pain i desire to free back into its cage,
And all hope of happyness is destroyed withing a sigh.

Look to the floor,
And see the glisening red stream flowing from my torn flesh,
As I turn into the thing you saved me from...

The curse of myself.





My Friend Liam wrote this wile he was really depressed and he was talking 2 me...and he thinks it's amatuer writing...I'm trying to prove him wrong and help him know that it's NOT amature