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So today I saw a man get run over by a train. I was with one of my friends and we were standing maybe 3-4 feet from him. She saw him jump, I saw him get run over. Our reactions we very different though. For a good 10 minutes after she was crying and asking over and over again "why?", obviously in shock. Maybe it was watching her reaction or seeing the face of the train driver, I was furious at the nameless man. Death has never really affected me in a big way, I find it just to be a part of life but I do feel sympathy for him because I can only imagine what he was going through but to kill yourself in such a way that will affect so many people is unforgivable! Even now I worry that my friend is ok and that she won't be traumatized by this.

However when I was driving her home (I would not let her travel home by herself) I was looking at the people going about their lives, completely oblivious. It made me think that our lives are insignificant. People die everyday and so many people don't even bat an eyelash. But even so, life is a gift a miracle even and throwing it away like that especally when you live in a society where no matter how shattered your life is as long as you live you can fix it, is just insane!