you know when you know something bad will come up eventually..but then at the same time you never figure it will actually happen to you.
yeah...well, i did..somewhat.
i knew it was coming, but i didn't know it was coming so soon.
I had my myself i new year's resolution which i will not say again what it was, but because of news of a departure of the one i heart i have to destroy it.
i guess i'll just have to stick with getting a better job. hopefully that's something i can do.
but it hurts...it hurts so bad i keep trying to think of other things. and when people tell me things...bad things..it takes a few hours for me to actually register it and then react. well, mine happened in the middle of the night at the new year's eve party..do you know how hard it is not to cry when that's all you can think of doing at the moment. i had to hold it in...but it hurt so bad.
when i got home..that's all i did. cry...cry cry and cried some more. i actually fell to the ground ...i haven't done that in over 3 or 4 years ago.
i got the speech, which is true and a realistic one at that..but not as easy as it seems. go on...and continue your life as if nothing happens and just do what you have to do.
it's like jumping into the time warp....one world just stops and the other one keeps on moving.
i do hope that 2007 passes on fast...cauz 2008 will be long enough for me to handle.
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