Time froze. She sat on the floor. I laughed. The poor girl had nothing in her eyes but what she saw the world as. Lost hope. I watched her continually pull herself down. We both plastered the make-up. For the same reasons. We wanted to hide our flaws. I watched her. Her tedious efforts to make herself perfect. I've learned that he lied. She still swallows his guilt. I saw her look at me. Her pleading eyes envied me. I turned away. I didn't care to look anymore. That was the thens. This is the nows. I finished with my mascara and smiled. Not perfect. But good enough. I messed up a bit. So what? Mistakes have been made. He was not my fault. I looked at the mirror and it was gone. I put away my things. I walked outside to remember the long forgotten joy of the fresh air. I was not to blame. He's gone...but I don't need them so long as I have friends. Let me hold this halo and these wings. I don't need to be like you...just me...that's all I am...just me...
 Made27 · Tue Jan 25, 2005 @ 08:35pm · 2 Comments |
