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*sigh* Life's little depressions.
<center> Don't you find it depressing when your friends are talking about killing themselves or talking about how much they hate life and everything that lives? And not being in the same town puts me at a large disadvantage. How do they expect me to be cheer them up? I say they're not allowed to be unhappy any more. Like hell that's gonna work, but hey, I tryed.
Anywho, I myself have been very depressed lately. have you ever had that feeling where you heart is being pulled in two dirrections? Well, that's what I'm feeling. You see, I hate living here in Torrance, but I've finally made new friends that love and care for me, and I'd feel sorrowful if I left them now. But on the other hand, I have many friends that I so dearly love in my hometown, (the only place in the world I feel truely happy) and I'd like to move back and be with them. Oh, what a condrum this is, for you see, if I leave now I shall be leaving behind (once again) my family and my new friends, (manly worried about leaving Charity and Sara, luv you guys!!). But if I stay, I shall continue to long for my hometown and everything in it. My heart has a hole in it, which can only be filled there. *sigh* What to do, what to do...
Oh, and on top of all that, my laptop doesn't work. gonk <center>






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Pandrogyny
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commentCommented on: Sat Jan 22, 2005 @ 09:09pm
gonk I know exactly how you feel. emotion_hug As long as you stay in touch with everyone, it's ok. Just make sure you do that until you know where you want to be. :3

And of course, if you do move back, I can always move back too and you can live with me. x3 I'll be sure to try and bring home pretty asian boys. ;D


commentCommented on: Tue Jan 25, 2005 @ 03:43am
you shouldn't have to feel this way if you have friends and family that love you in both places then the ones that you say love you or that you love, if you care deeply enough for them or they care a lot about you where you are this shouldn't bother them, but like is said if they are as dear to you as you say they are then they will still love you no matter the location, and that is the full on truth^^ and as for friends talking about killing themselves, talking about it is one thing and actually doing /attempting it is a complete other, all you can do is keep in touch with these people and let them know with all of your heart that you love them, i'm pretty sure you know this but i'm farmiliar with the friend's wanting suicide situation because we have pretty much the same friends here, they dont seem much like they mean it anymore, but anyways, just wanted to help^^ i'm sorry if this was very long/boring/sappy/time consuming for you, but it just looked like you needed a touch from the heart and that is exactly what i tried to give, oh yeah one last thing, about being torn between two homes, your friends may be sad when/if you leave to live another place, or you may see tears on their faces but this just expresses how much they love you, do not mistake these tears for anger, but more of fear, they are not comfortable with the thought of you leaving and are afraid that they will not see you for a long time but if you keep in touch with them and even visit these friends that you dont live near occasionally then i can be sure when i tell you this they will love you the same for all times, I must sound very cheezy for saying all of this so i think i shall stop for now, but if you think that this was meaningful and ever need somones shoulder to cry on.. *turns her head to face you*I'm here.. like a true friend, *blows a kiss to your navi and pats it* me hopies it feels better^^



Kitari Kitsune
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