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I hate this.
I hate life.
I hate people.
I hope you all burn and die. I'm sick of trying to help you people and then having it blow up on me.
I'm a very corrupt individual and I would...I just wish I could meet someone who wanted to help me as much as I help everyone else.
Then I meet them-and they're feeling nothing but pity for me and eventually they go away so in the end it was nothing but a waste of my time.
I'm angry. At everyone. I am hurt. I am ignored. I am blamed for all the problems because of the moron's that are deemed more credible than me because a person know them longer.
I'm just sick of it. I hate this. It makes me sick to my stomach and I have the urge to flip the blade and slice away.
I'm mad, because anything with 'people' that I try to do always ends in me being hurt and them just walking away.
I wish I was the only person people talked to sometimes. They always have many other chat windows up, so many other people to talk to, and I'm always left out. I'm always like that last person on the pounds of buddy-windows.
I feel like with everyone I know, everyone I kill myself and bend and break my schedule to hang with treat me like I'm expendible. I swear to god I am ready to say "Good Bye" to all of you and just forge this and sell my laptop for quick cash, I have things I can be doing offline right now anyway.
I wanna break things and scare people...I want to bewilder you with my 'strange' behavior...
I just...devote myself so much, and people treat me like garbage. I'm really sickj of it. Even the nice people do it now. Those who don't treat me badly like Zaros a nd Blaugh have a complicated schedule and so I can't talk to them like ever.
Its nto fair...the people who devote to me as I devote to them are to busy...
::sigh:: I hate my life so much, so I'ma go cry all my problems out and let them cradle me to sleep...
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