I lost a friend last night. A good friend. I said somethings to him I didnt mean to say. I said them out of anger. I will miss him dearly, actually. I told him that I will have a better life now that he is out of it. I didnt mean that. I told him I hated him. I can't hate him.
I am foolish. (x2) He told me that. I think it is true. I fail at everything. Hm, well at school I am considered a leader. He used to think I was his leader. Well, I never was because he was always the one leading me. Times change, and this is when my new life begins I suppose.
I would post a new entry the most I can. Gaia is sort of becoming my life. The rest of everything else is drowning... We will never be anymore. Yes, he was a good friend to me. I was in love with him. Things happend, then we were just friends. We are too diffrent I guess. Used to be like opposites attract but.. that failed.
Something that is surprising me is that, I am not crying. I am not hurt badly. I have no need to cry. It is all in my head. While mental feeling swirl around in my head.. I ignore them. I have controll over my feelings unlike some people. It depends on who you are.
I think I am done writting for today.
 Teh Gumie Bear · Fri Jan 07, 2005 @ 07:44pm · 1 Comments |
