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...i dont care anymore

i dont care what happens to me...i dont care if i live or die...i hope i die...i'm sick of life...i am sick of being uncared for and unhappy...i am sicking of watching happy people run by and me sitting back depressed...

no one has time for m anymore...i am just bothering everyone..i dont see how i am...i dont let them see me sad...i am happy with them...yet they are unhappy with me...

i am unaccepted, unloved, and unwanted...people, more than one person has admited that sometimes they are just nice to others because it 'feels lke the right thing to do'

i dunno what started me cutting like this again...i know who made me feel i should, but i'm the one doing it now...so i guess its my fault..

...it is bad to like someone...it is bad to discuss how you feel...it just leads to hurt and confusion which uou will have to deal with alone...i miss chris...i wish he were here now...chris makes everything feel better...its so pathetic how i am so dependant on a person i have nevr met...

...everything is my fauly...i am a bad person...if i were gone everyone would have one less thing to worry about....everyone wouldnt have to worry about what to say to me today...my mom would be happy too, one less person trying to 'back sass' her

i am sad...and once again i am alone...all alone...it is how i am meant to be...and no matter how much red i draw it won't chang a thing