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I wonder why I keep all of you here with me.
Why don't I try to forget my past and all the people in it?
Why must I look back at dear friends and regret a choice that wasn't mine?
Constantly sighing as I think of memories that could be but never will......
Those past memories......they are left untouched and unforgotten.....but still, why?

In my domain
Is where you stay
Right here
So crystal clear
As tears fall on you
I try not to look back because I don't know what to do.
You can't see my pain
because you think you are forgotten and are so far away
But you couldn't be farther from the truth

My problems, my fears, my past...
All fade away into this grin..this smile
This overwhelming feeling of complete happiness
Ah, happiness! What a feeling it is!
I would shout from the rooftops that I am happy with you!
The happiest I have been in a while..Even now, I still feel.....that way..
But not as much...Not when I think of you...Not when I speak with you, no..No, it fades away like the sunset does before night....Before all darkness comes and little lights that are untouchable come......Yeah, you are the brightest light, my guiding star....
I am the happiest when I think of running into your arms for the first time...Our first embrace......Ah, thinking of it gives me this cool sensation! I could fade away in your arms, now and forever......

As I sink deeper into you, I feel this emptiness
It calls for you but there is no way for it to be heard
I want to find you, in this vast emptiness but you are already here
You can't hear me, I can't even hear me
And yet I am shouting and pleading for you
I want this emptiness to be filled with you
I want this emptiness to be replaced with you
You! I want and swear I need you...
But I can't want alone
This...is a search for us both....

Shh...Do you hear it?
The wind whistling past us?
We are stationary.
We stand here while everything passes us by
We feel when people rush to other places
We smile when they run to their bus stops
We blush when they get angry
We love when they let burdens mock them......

These tears.......
Why must I cry if I know you will be here tommorow?
Why must I worry if you say you're okay?
Why must I wish tommorow would come sooner?
I cry becuase I miss you
I worry because I love you so
I wish tommorow would come sonner, so I wouldn't have to let you go
I'll drown in these emotions
And you are my only lifegaurd
I wish you were here for just this moment
So the emotions would not get to me at all....

Running away from it all
Jumping into a wonderland that is you
I can feel your love surround me
I am somewhere I haven't been before
But feel as if I knew my entire life
I feel this warmth, this tenderness
I feel your touch but it is so far away
I see you and I miss you
but you are as clouded as a dream
Running from it all to come to you......
......... heart You can only imagaine why...

He is my inspiration! heart 4laugh

As rain pours down and I am soaking wet
And I have thought I lost everything
I found out I haven't because I have you
I have everything.....

I don't mind any opinions....