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I miss the way things used to be.
I miss yelling at Shadow and having him cry about how wrong he was, I will be honest I liked having someone whimper at my every woe and be obsessed with me like he was. I miss his friendship, but for some reason I just don't want to talk to him anymore. I mean, I would try to go crawling back to him and beg for forgiveness...but I just can't. I am happy not to be affliated with him or Brandon anymore. I keep looking inside myself and trying to figure out if this is just like an initial thing. You know, how when you do something that feels great atfirst, but then you realise it was a big mistake. But I ...I don't feel like this is a problem. I feel happy I did it. I am regretless. whee
I thought about Shadow now because I had a dream about him last night. The first time I ever dreamed abotu him, and I wish I would have wrote it down but I forgot about it now. If it weren't for the dream I wouldnt' even be thinking of him. I invested so much time into him though, so its somewhat sad to see it all go to waste. I just can't fathom(sp?) why I would dream about him like that...
It snowed last night and the snow stayed on the ground. Only an inch or so, but I'm exctatic to see it.Its so nice to see snow, it makes me happy for some reasn; as well as relaxed. Someone once said its because since I was born in January (around snow), something abotu ti just calms me.
I miss my Onii-san for some reason. Snow makes me think of him. I think I shouldn't think about him, I don't think Onii-san likes it when I do. But I'm not sure. Onii-san confuses me sometiems because he's unlike any other guy I know. Onii-san is very diffrent and very special to me for that reason, I love my Onii-san very much. heart
I'm going to get on RO and make some new friends there. I need some newer people to talk to.
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