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Neko Kafweenu's Scroll
So here's my journal..... thing..... I'll probably just write about random stuff that I happen to be thinking about.....
Gah...
I know nobody reads my stupid journal, but I want to write all this down somewhere. If anyone does read this, will you please leave a comment just so I know? Thanks.
Anyway, I feel like like a complete failure. I am so pathetic, I seriously can't do anything right anymore. It sucks. I talked about in my last entry how I was trying so hard to make weaponline this year. Well, I didn't. Again. I want to kill Jen. Just like last year, Jen told me I'm good enough, there just isn't enough room on the line. She tells me this same thing every season. If she says it again this winter, I'm done, and I quit.
Also, in case you didn't know, I'm a portrait artist at Kings Island, the amusement park. I feel like a failure there, too. My art is fine, that's not the problem. But I always get really difficult customers, and my manager hasn't trained me to draw front view portraits or cut silhouettes yet (so I can only draw profiles). So when customers come to me asking for those, I have to turn them down and send them to somebody with more experience. Then there's the cash register. I'm really bad with technology and stuff like that. It took me long enough to figure out how to use a flipping computer, and my MP3 player and scanner don't work anymore. So working a cash register, especially under pressure when customers are there, is really difficult for me.
Also, I often work with this other portrait artist David, who has more experience than me and often gets my customers that want front views and silhouettes. He thinks I'm and idiot, I'm sure. I always look really stupid next to him. The other day I was in a hurry (late for guard) and couldn't figure out how to sign out, which I really should know how to do, and yesterday I broke the glass in a frame, and I messed up the register so everything you did made it beep annoyingly. I could tell David was trying really hard not to strangle me. *sigh*
So that's why I'm a failure at life. I seriously cannot do anything right anymore. Guard, work, you know. It sucks.






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Maxwell_Arcaina
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commentCommented on: Sat Jul 29, 2006 @ 11:47pm
your not a failure you just make mistakes everyone does its life it'll be ok


commentCommented on: Sun Dec 23, 2007 @ 04:45am
hi i was looking through the band nerd guild and happen to read how good u r at rifle
this is going to be my second year in band and my first in indoor i cant wait for competitions
dont put urself down just keep trying from wat u have written ur going to make for sure as long as u dont give up
im really happy at my self i tried hard enough and was finnally able to do a threeple i have only done rifles for three weeks so its pretty cool
sorry for my spelling



snow015
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