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I feel weird now...

I took a nap earlier today, so I think I'll be up all night. All alone, though sweatdrop I really need to invest some time into better friends.

Teh, for example, I have come to realise today just how much I really meant to one of my friends. We used to 'go out' rolleyes

Drop it like its hot is so damn kewl~! heart I love this song, Snoop sings it and that other guy who's name isn't really important does too 4laugh Damn I love this song. 4laugh

But anyway, yea, Shadow is who I am refering to. sweatdrop I don't know how he happened, I was bored and wanted somethin fun to do. Like I said, it's always nice to tell someone you love them when you feel like you do. Plus, we played RO together all the time too. To me it was just something fun to do which was time consuming with a person who made me feel wanted. (^^ There is a certain someone I know though, who I am proud to say is the first person I don't feel like this about. heart ) confused Thats mean, but how Shadow is acting now 3nodding its was well deserved.

He's bein such a stuck-up jerk. I was mean to him for two days and he acts like I have been doing it forever. I told him not to talk to me damn it, he didn't want to listen and now he has to be a ******** a*****e to me because he can't take a hint. So we were talkin today and he told me about this girl he likes. They used to go out or somethin and broke up and now he has a crush on her again and he's scared to talk to her rolleyes The way he presented it was to attempt to make me hurt or jealous, and I won't lie I was a little. But, I don't care really when I think clear-headedly about it now. I hope she crush's all his hopes and dreams and shatters his heart into a thousand peices mad

Thats so mean of me, sweatdrop but so true. Tryin to make me jealous stare

I've been pixil dolling my heart out xd I've done so many now~!

Tommrow my cuz is doin my hair and I'ma put up new pic's of me~! heart Much better ones wink

I 'cleared' up the situation with Brandon. I quit caring though. I kinda hate myself for it. I think I am pretending to care and even trying to fool myself 'cause I care so much for Brandon and Shadow and I don't want them to go away. confused Its so pathetic, but so true.

Oh~! I got to talk to Onii-san today~! heart Teh, I've been hella happy. 3nodding I don't think I am being all emo-like anymore, I'm tryin hard whee But its like when I hang with Onii-san now I don't even have to try not to be emo, somethin about 'em just makes me not want to be. redface

Kev promised the whole day to me. But, things happened and we didn't get to spend anytime together. rolleyes As was to be expected.

:;sigh:: I need to find new people to play with, but I'm to lazy to go out and look gonk I'm not like other people, I want my friends to be a certain way and as it stands only one person is how I like 'em. crying Its so not fair...

There's someone I really want to be with...and I can't be...'cause of distance and I don't think they honestly like me like that...and it sucks... sad

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<center> 4laugh I want a Domo-kun Doll~! 4laugh </center>