i'm starting to think my parents never really wanted a child
i'm now starting to think that i was never really wanted by both of my parents. i mean my dad walked out and left my mom to raise me when i was 3 months old because he couldn't man up and be a man to support a family and i haven't seen or heard from him sense then. my mom on the other hand i feel like she only kept be because abortion wasn't a huge thing in the 90's like it is today so she figured she'd have me with high hopes my father would marry her after i was born but it didn't happen like that. she got stuck raising a kid that she may or may not of wanted who knows but the way i feel i feel like she never wanted me. because every time she'd get a new bf and he found out about me he'd leave her. so at age 5 i figured i'd just runway from home aka run way to my grandmas who lived two houses down from our place i stayed there until i was 12. then i got sick really sick to where i would of died but i'm all better now and mom forced me to move back in with her but here i am now thinking that i never had a childhood like a normal kid because my dad didn't want me and my mom never really could afford stuff i wanted. now i'm sitting here feeling like i ruin my moms life by being born and i just wish i could move far away from here so my nor dad has to see or deal with me again.
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