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So, those of you who are close with me will know about how I've recently lost a very close friend. I trusted him more than most people who have known me for years compared to the few months he knew me. And to those who knew about him, I worried and I pined and I acted inappropriately in how I handled his absence. He didn't die, he didn't lose internet connection, he wasn't being punished, nothing of the sort was happening, he's just gone.I finally got up the courage last night to mail him and ask him if he was done with being my friend.
Now I won't tell you everything he said, but he did say he was bored of me and that I was over dramatic.
And well... I'm happy, ecstatic even. I mean I spent an entire month waiting for something, anything, from him.
A "hello" even, I really was waiting for anything. I was willing to accept anything from him.
Being called boring and over dramatic? I can understand that, to some people I am the most boring person they've ever met, and I can live with that.
Same goes for being over dramatic, I can live with that, I can accept it as a reason for someone to go back on their word.
Because it's a goodbye that I'm used to hearing.
Silence is what really hurts, silence is what makes it hard to move on with my life. Insults are fine, I can handle them, as quirky as that sounds.
And to some people, I'm not boring or over dramatic. And those are the only people I want around me, those are the people that I fight to keep in my life.
I don't want to be a burden, and I don't want to be insulted for who I am. I overreact, and sometimes I have nothing interesting to say.
It's just who I am, and if someone isn't willing to stick around and wait for me to speak up, or to apologize for my behavior, then I don't want them around.
I can move on.
It's so easy to move on.
I just need a reason.
And once I have my reason, I can smile and say "Thank you," and then I walk away.

The Most Boring Person in the World who Holds the World Record for Table-Flipping Expertise,

-Faith