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Memories are you most deepest thing to keep, don't throw them away because you can't forget them, like me, if you knew my story you would know that i tryed to get rid of it. My grandpa died like 5 years ago and till this day i still can't get over it, i have changed since then, when i was little i would smile a lot but until now i havn't smiled at all, it was like i forgot how to, sure i smile a lot but thats not my smile, inside i am tearing to pieces, fading away. I am fading away from my parents and fading away from my family, if only i knew that i could not get over this pain until i die, the only thing i regret was the night that he died. We left to go home at 12 am at night when he died, i never got to say "i love you", i cryed all night and i wish i could have told him that. This is all supposed to be a secret but if my friends are reading this i have only this to say, cheerish you loved once and your grandparents, take the time to say that i love, for when the day comes that they would have to move one you won't be able to have the time to say i love you. crying And i thought that i would be able to forget that memory but it will just keep coming back and haunting me, my quote "memories are supposed to be happy when your sharing it with the one you love, but when the main source of you life is gone all you have is a shattered past and no one can replace what has been lost." To me...i wasn't able to open that up to...anyone until...now. crying