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Something has got to give here. What is it that is so difficult to understand about wanting a friend? Someone to talk to, laugh with, cry with, learn about and love in that friendly like manner?

Maybe I go about things the wrong way,

Maybe I ask too much.

Maybe I'm just stupid and seem to like getting used as an ego boost so dudes can go out and find a girlfriend.

....and then dump me on my a**. No goodbye. No, "Thanks for the memories". No nothing. They just up and disappear like they never existed.

I sometimes wonder if I'm insane and I'm just imagining these dudes.

Is it really not allowed to have a friend that is a girl when you have a girlfriend?

My boys have all kinds of friends that are girls. ********, one of them has a girlfriend. xd I don't get it. I don't understand how it is, in any manner, ok to treat people like so much refuse....garbage....worthless.

"Well, I got what I needed. ******** you."

That's what it feels like, guys.

That woman in the picture, with the merry green eyes and the soft smile? She just retreated further and deeper inside. Harder to get to. Harder to hurt. I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of worrying. I'm tired of wondering what the ******** I did wrong.

No one should have to do that.

A real friend wouldn't do that to anyone.

So, yeah, thanks.