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I plan to upload a picture of myself sometime next month. Now, it's not set in stone, for circumstances may interfere, one being my own cowardice. I'm somewhat afraid to upload it due solely to paranoia, which can and will be overcome. Other circumstances are things that are unknown, things that I have no power over. The uploaded picture of myself will reveal only half of my face, the whole of it will be saved and shown only to my lover, if I ever happen to try online dating again. I've chosen who will see my countenance, they consist of close and dear friends that have truly been there to support me, and those that I've known for a good number of years. The list will contain anywhere from five to twenty names, and will be changed as I see fit. As of now, the few that will see my name are Yumi/Kori, Monica, Miranda, Cody, Tori, and perhaps Retag. Retag is a maybe because I do not know whether or not she'll show it to Sarah. I do not wish for her to see it, she's no longer close enough for me to share it with. There are people that I've forgotten, good friends whose names have escaped the confines of my mind. I suppose I will show Yance as well, for even though we've only known each other for a year, she's proved to be a good friend. I will most likely show it to Allison and Kameron as well, if they so desire to see it, which I do not doubt. I've only known them for several months, but my conversations with them have done so much for me that I owe them a glimpse of my real self. Cakey will see it as well, for he has been a great help to me in my youth, the great mentor that one would think only lived in stories. I will ask him to show Iruna as well. Why Iruna and not Sarah? Well, I know that he'll show Iruna no matter what I say, so I wish to at least allow myself to think that I permitted him to. (It's a control thing, don't judge me.) Quite an extensive list, is it not? More names will be added as they drift back through the rivers and streams of my memories.
If you did not spot your name in my short yet grand list above, do not fret. You might be added to it later one when I append it, or you'll see it at a much later date, whenever I choose to release it to everyone on my friends list that wishes to see it. The closest of friends see it first, the rest see it later. No one is truly left out, for, if people actually like my appearance, I will have it as my signature.

Not my best writing, I admit. You see, I'm talking on Skype while typing this, and I am not quite comfortable typing about this. I only did so to recognize a few people for what they've done for me, and to confirm that I will upload a picture of myself in due time. When I type of subjects that do not interest me, or make me uneasy, my writing tends to take a turn for the worse. My apologies.