Is destiny arrogant? is faith selfish?
difficult question
i think it all depends on peoples world views religous views moral.
there's this thing i've read "called the universe doesn't give a flying ******** about you"
think about it though with everything thats going on. then you think about us and how
long we're alive for and everythings gonna last. is it an ignorant thought to think
we have something planned out for us. but this answer will vary depending on the person
they all have different answers but this is my point my answer.
even if all of that even after your "destiny" when you die you're still you.
so i think like this.
When i pass on its inevitable i'm bound to be forgotten
and to be honest i see it as a problem
not that i want my name to live forever. my name will disappear
but when i die my name, my memories, who i am will be gone.
and i'm okay with dieing. this isn't a pessimistic thing.
but just think an average life spand is 70-80 years.
and there's a lot of things you can do in those years.
but the thing is.
i don't want to be defined as my occupation you know a lawyer teacher doctor whatever.
i want to if possible be remembered as myself as Donovan.
i spent the first 16 out of 18 years of my life with i can'ts
i can't do a backflip
i can't dance
i am ugly will never find someone
i can't do anything with my life
i can't be _______ This
i can't do anything
and then it started to stick. and i started to believe that
i could achieve nothing. that i would be nothing.
but then on my 17th birthday it clicked. i was like screw that.
i'm sick and tired of being my worse enemy.
i'm living my life For myself. not anyone else.
and if i was to say i wasn't s**t. that would be how i was remembered.
and i changed i began to believe in myself.
i wanted to be more spontaneous. i wanted to essentially become a yes man.
and its funny cause the next year i met and Finally started talking to the most amazing girl in my life.
so spontaneous so outgoing, imo she believed in herself, she was confident and great plus she's cute and stuff ha! redface
we became friends, and i started slowly to become to stop being my own worse enemy.
i became comfortable in my own skin. i became happy. i started thinking
i can do anything if i put my mind to it.
and now months later i got a job i'm out experiencing life. i am a better man and it started because of her.
if you can learn to accept defeat with grace and all that type of cliches.
if you can learn to become comfortable with yourself in any situation.
it doesn't matter. nothing can affect you negatively.
its just a bunch of things to work for. self improvement aren't for people
on the verge of suicide. just become the best version of yourself
and i guarantee that
You will be happy.
so I've decided to follow my dreams. and do what i wanna do. no matter how ridiculous it is
and i don't mean an occupation i mean. ridiculous stuff random things.
i wanna visit places and not just parts i wanna See ******** everything about the place
i wanna do a backflip
i wanna shoot a gun
i want to go hunting
i want to crack a whip
i want to fly a plane
i want to learn how to swim
i want to learn how to cartwheel
i want to base jump
i want to sky dive
i want do cheesy romantic stuff: Slow dance, kiss on top ferris wheels, scream out that im in love to everyone, i want to have a magical proposal, i want to have an amazing wedding. sweatdrop
i want to barrel roll
i want to drive a car
i want to finally swap from long boarding to skate boarding to do tricks
i want to ******** roller skate backwards without falling on my a**.
i want to do s**t. Fun s**t. s**t that will make me happy.
that way whenever i do die. i won't live a wasted life.
i can live the best life i ever possibly can.
Is destiny arrogant, is faith selfish?
i think so. make it happen don't wait for things to come to you.
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