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Bad roommate drama.

Gods. Awful.

I don't want to hear her name or talk about it for quite a long time.

Thing is, I don't even feel like s**t or want to cry or hate... I just feel a deep numbing. It could be taken as a sadness but... it doesn't feel quite like that. It's more of a deep pain that I can't heal on my own. I need a hug or reassurance I'm not s**t.

I hate being betrayed like this.

[/ sigh]

On a different topic, I want to work on my roleplay stories again. Both Mafia and Cirque. I've been putting pieces together for a while. I'm in no means ready to ask other people aboard to show anything. I think I'm at the stage where I'm planning events and trying to piece together NPC'S

I wish my boyfriend was here.

Things have been hard lately. Not... REALLY hard ... just unexpectedly heavy.

Christy never responded to her Birthday greetings so that makes me feel a bit guilty about it, like I did something wrong. I would never want to hurt her and I just feel bad I didn't make a bigger deal about her birthday or try harder to celebrate with her.

I guess I don't feel like a good person?

Bah [/ sigh] that's a shitty feeling. It doesn't help that I do all sorts of other things that are bad already, Haha. Yup. This isn't me being sad for myself or anything, it's actually me being pretty truthful and realistic. o__o Weird. Well, I should sleep to bury these feelings and move on. Sleep cures just about everything.