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Ah.

Lately I've been spiraling.

Hell of a time to talk to friends.

Hell of a time to have a boyfriend.

Some times I can shake it off but this ******** is persistent.
Even if I wrestle him down, he comes back a few hours later.
Once I get over this ******** hump, things will be better.

I know what brought this on,
my ******** roommate drama.
I wonder if it will clear up once she is back?

What a ******** time to have this spiral too.
It should be a happy time for me,
I should be ******** jubilant.
I'm not.
I will be once this is over.
I'll celebrate later.
I keep worrying though..l ******** roommate s**t.
Even though I talked it over with Jayme,
I know that deep down I am still disturbed by it all.

I'll keep reading and watching shows.
Gods I need to stay away from stores right now,
I am so distressed I will buy all kinds of s**t I don't need
just to cheer myself up a little for the day.
********.

Btw. I had sex for the first time this weekend,
not that it is any of your business.
Maybe later, when I know more, I will write more on the subject.