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My roommate is sick so she went to bed early last night. Of course, at 12 her phone went off and woke me up from my peaceful lull. I was about to fall asleep then that damn phone... and she talked for like ten minutes. I shrugged it off and tried to sleep again. I fell asleep then woke up, every hour. SHE COUGHED ALL ******** NIGHT. Every ******** hour she coughed and I could hear it through my earplugs. Gods.... I could not sleep so I tore ( noisily ) my sheets from my bed that I wanted and stomped out of the room to sleep on the ******** COUCH. MOTHERIOFwneksvblawjves MOTHER ********.

I'm still very upset about this.

Had I really been going to school, I would have skipped and been a grumpus all day DUE TO HER ******** SICKNESS Fnrielivake FRAAEJKn MOTEHRJNsvf akjvna

I hate her so much right now.

I came home to a ******** messy room and dirty a** bathroom. She didn't clean at all. THAT ******** b***h! There is mold on our sink. There is hair everywhere. The shower is still stained. b***h KNOWS HOW TO CLEAN.

Gods....

And the butter container that I bought FOR HER she hasn't used so we stare at the damn nasty a** butter sitting out in front of OUR DAMN FACES. It is gross. So gross.

I'm just so frustrated that everything is bothering me right now.

Everything I can usually ignore, is sending me off the wall. I can't stand it. I can't stand it. I can't stand it.

On top of all that, I'm depressed cause A. I'm living a lie again B. I have nothing to do because I gave up on Mafia Harem and my Cirque Rp C. Rin made her own Cirque RP so I feel like I am being replaced... like I am no longer needed or really her friend anymore D. I am SUPER insecure right now about my appearance and weight. I don't know what I would do if Kenny came to visit and I'm freaking out about sex because I want to have it but don't know what I need for it or how to bring it up or whether it would be a right time or if people would be around..


Yes, I am freaking out.

I am in distress.

Gods be good, I need a dream to focus my attention on.