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I can't trust you And why should I? I did at one point, and look at me now. I'm more demonic than ever. I can't trust anyone the same. I believed in you and your friends, and now what? I was played. I was gullible enough to believe in you, but not naive enough to not see the truth. I was never your "friend". I guess being tricked like this helped me see that much. I always had some "title" or some "reason" for being near you. And when I was replaced I wasn't needed and you let me go. Did I not matter that much? You all couldn't accept me as "me"; just as the sweet, kind version that you had come to enjoy. When I couldn't stand acting like that anymore, I decided to act like myself. But that wasn't good enough for any of you... I couldn't understand why. Was I not good enough as "myself"? Did you no longer have a reason to act like we were "friends"? Or was I just replaced? ... I guess it doesn't matter now. It's okay. Really. Now I know I can't trust you. Or them. And I probably never should have. But, something good did come from this. I learned who my real friends are, and I learned you're not one of them. I also learned how to be alone. I learned to appreciate my solitude, and that no matter how much you care for someone else, your time alone is not worth the sacrifice. No matter how much you want to show you care, you must always take care of yourself first. No matter what your feeling of "love" compels you to do, "you" should always be the most important. Because in the end, that's all you have. The part of me that still wants you is on her deathbed, and from the loss of her life brings forth something more demonic than before. Something demonic, and maybe misanthropic. After all, I can't trust you anymore.

Posted by: SilentxBeautyx113 Tue Apr 03, 2012 @ 08:02am

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Ignysse
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Thu Apr 05, 2012 @ 06:12pm

I have hope
Why would I? Because you're a good person. I know you probably can't trust me anymore and it'd be dumb of me to ask you cuz it's probably a lost cause. Heck, why am I even typing this right now if you can't trust me? Who knows.
Nothing that's happened between us is really how I wanted things to be. It's actually turned out to be the worst case scenario I guess. I never planned for you to be "tricked" or anything. I don't think you deserve what happened and I was also against it, but I was ruled out. It wasn't my choice in the end. To my understanding, you were just getting used to the place, you just got through the door to meet us and that door was shut in your face. For that, I apologize to you.
I can understand that the trust was broken. In destruction, lies potential creation. Hopefully whats been created isn't going to turn out to be more destructive.

In her death, I will continue this comic though. So far I've been just drawing a bunch of nonsense, but now I think I have some sort of direction for when the storyline comes into question.

Anyways, long story short; I'm truly sorry for the way things turned out. I won't ask your forgiveness, but I will at least say that.

(I hope you're talking about me cuz I'd feel a little conceited <.> But either way, I wanted to get that off my chest.)

SilentxBeautyx113
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Fri Apr 06, 2012 @ 07:55am

I am skeptical
I know you have no reason to lie to me, but I have no reason to believe you. Because while all this was happening, I heard nothing from you. Just that it was a "unanimous decision" and "everyone feels this way". I just don't understand why any of that happened, and I don't know why either of you would lie about something like that. And, despite how both of you said we'd still "be friends" I've heard nothing from either of you til now.
This is a worst case scenario for you? I was rejected and abandoned by people I trusted for no reason other than my "dirty, vulgar" personality and way of speech. What could possibly be worse than that?
Asking for my forgiveness won't do much. It's true that I was hurt by what happened. But I've already accepted that I simply wasn't "Chivalry Material" if I wasn't with you. I got full of myself and thought your friends were mine, when I should have known they were only putting up with me until we weren't together. I suppose it's no one's fault I'm so gullible; I guess, like the fact my speech was so inappropriate, it was just something implied and whispered throughout the guild. I must have missed that. It's nothing that still hurts now. It's not like I have any hard feelings towards any of you. I simply don't see why I should trust any of you.
If anything, I suppose I'd have to forgive the fact that my trust was betrayed. And, I guess that is possible.

Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. And if such as flower can not only forgive that which has destroyed, but impart a sweet smell onto it, how can we as humans do any less than forgive minor transgressions perceived by us at the hands of our fellow man?"

Regardless of whether or not I forgive that any time soon, I'd like to see the comic whenever you've made progress.

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