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So I suppose this does actually have a topic to it, but I don't feel like trying to think of one.
So my friend is losing herself, she's having a horrible time and I don't know what to do. I feel like she's asking so much at once and yet I can't turn her away, I mean I've been where she's heading, and I don't want her going there. It was horrible, and as far as I know she's so close to going there.
A friend of hers keeps me updated, tells me the things that my friend won't. Helps me work out what to do. We're trying hard to keep our friend safe, she finally had something go right though.
She fell in love with a guy who loves her, she told me he tells her how he wants to keep her safe, to hold her close, to marry her even. And they are engaged, so happy times~ But theres a slight problem, this friend of mine is Bi, meaning she loves both genders.
Apparently she loves me, not the way I love my friends, but you know the way you love someone who's very special that isn't related.
And I can't do anything about that because I'm pretty sure I'm not Bi, and 'cuz I love someone else.
So she's upset because she's worried she's hurting me because she's hurting herself and such.
Her latest escapade was starving herself, and now she's sick because her immune system went down from lack of nutrition.
Her side opened up again, she got her hands on a box cutter and cute a line up her side; I heard it was bad.
She seems to be fading away, and I can't stop her; at least I don't think I'm the one she wants to stop her, I think she wants Gaven, her husband-to-be, and I don't know him so I can't trust he will
They broke up for a few hours last night because he was pushing her, not to do anything, but pushing her away.
Which made me hate him so very much.
She didn't need that, he should know; but he did it anyways
So I've been dragged in, and it's so very hard to try and fix myself and fix her at the same time; I'm pretty sure I've spent more time coddling and soothing her then I have working through my own problems.
Not that I mind, I don't really want to deal with my problems, and I getting myself back together anyways, thanks to someone who's unknowningly helped me ^^
Hopefully she'll be whole again, and then I won't have to worry about her; I will anyways but it would be a choice not an obligation




**2015 EDIT**
I'll have you all know that my friend in this story turned out more or less okay.
As far as I know she's single and isn't pining over any of her exes.