Happy Birthday... Indeed...
The day was going great! I got that call that I wanted. The call that would grant me to listen to Rei's voice. To hear the angelic voice to sing me a song for my birthday. That was the highlight of the day.
But my day completely turned around. This is how it happened: The neighbor's ex-husband is giving her s**t and all that. My sister, pops off for some reason I don't exactly know, that my mother had an affair with my step-dad, now. I was like, yeah, it was when we had this house. Then my siter gave me this look. "No, it was when mom and dad were still together." I blinked and looked at my mom. "When... you were still with dad, in dad's house?" My jaw completely dropped and I looked to Dave and all he said was ' Happy Birthday ' What a ******** a**! I left. I didn't look back. I walked that whole ******** two miles to my dad's. Not stopping for my sister who yelled at me to get in the ******** car, didn't stop to think how I acted. It... hurt.
I always thought of my mother as someone I could look up to. Somone I thought was awesome. But, not any more. I believe in staying true. -Especially- through marriage. That just... broke me. I feel so hollow now. I don't feel anything right now, it's as if I'm numb.
After hours at my father my mother came and picked me up. We drove around for twenty minutes. I didn't speak a word. I just stared straight out the window with tears slowly falling down my cheeks. Finally my mom questioned to me ' What do you want to do? ' I shrugged and kept my eyes ahead. 'I have homework.' and so we went home. Now... here I am... bitching about all of this. So... for those reading... sorry.
 Just A Fly On The Wall · Tue Apr 04, 2006 @ 03:30am · 1 Comments |
