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It is official. I am pregnant with baby number two. I am, of course, hoping for another girl. I can't imagine me raising a boy. o.o Doug is happy and so is my mother. lol

I'm apprehensive. I took a leap of faith. I knew if I didn't do it now, before I started school again, I would never have another child. I at least wanted two. So, when I had my Mirena IUD removed, I didn't use any other contraceptive. I'm nervous. Money is tight and life is going to be hard anyway with nursing school, but we can make it. It seems so stressful and overwhelming when I just look at our situation without putting it into perspective. Really, we aren't doing too terribly bad. We have a lot of school loans, but we've managed to keep them in check. We have only one credit card. We have kept on top of the house payment. We sometimes run into trouble, but we are always able to scrape by. I guess, when looking at others who are declaring bankruptcy and losing their houses and are hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt, we really aren't doing too bad. We are just at that point in our lives where money is a concern. Mom says to just give it some time and keep working hard and things will work out. I know this, in my heart, but it's hard to look at the big picture with the here and now kicking your a** up one side and down the other.

So, really, it's just an emotionally confusing time. I'm elated at being pregnant again. I'm worried about money. I'm tired of school but recognize that I need something to provide me with a lucrative career. Plus, I just don't feel so great right now. I don't get morning sickness, but I get spells of dizziness and just plain blah-ness. And being pregnant makes me really tired for a little while. I know it will pass, which is the only thing that keeps me going some days.

In the end, I know I'll make it. I'm strong. I've made it through everything so far. That's not too shabby, eh?

razz