Do you know how it feels?
❝The intensity of a moment lingers in your mind, even months after it has passed❞
I stare up at the stage in disbelief. I'm here, I'm really here... doing this! The crowd around me shoves and pushes to get to the front but I'm already there, one person short of being pressed against the railing. The warm bodies are already dripping with sweat from the previous bands but this band brings new presence. The air swirls and condenses into a thick sludge of intoxicating high. I feel as glorious as the sun, setting on the world that depends on it for survival, yet I'm only a fan. I'm one of roughly five hundred people who are cheering and screaming at the top of their lungs to be noticed. My heart flutters, they're picking up their instruments. There they are. THERE. THEY. ARE. There are no more words in my head, only the buzzing anticipation.
"Scream at the top of your lungs Jen." My breaths came in short and troubled as I trembled lightly. "You know this song." As one, we lifted our voices. Jumping up and down with the greatest grin, I joined in the frenzy. Without thought the words came, as if I had been waiting centuries to say them. And each one was like a tiny cut, letting everything else just ooze out of me. The worries and thoughts, everything, just trickled away. I became nothing more than a voice, floating free and powerfully booming my way around the room. When my eyes met the singer, I came back down for an instant. His voice was so soft, letting me take a breath. It was so hard to breathe. His voice rose again and my breathing stopped, taken over by the impulse to scream yet again. We were singing, higher than the room. We had become gods.
He held me like a puppet on a string. Only by his words and tone could I breathe. Only by this song could I feel this high.
{ when Anberlin randomly comes on the radio or pandora, etc other music devices, I get this... high. I feel like my whole body is engulfed in the pleasure of the day I wen to watch them in concert so I thought I would write this little memory in tribute to the moment since today that Feel Good Drag came on in my Pandora playlist.
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