Scared for my morality [Apr. 8th, 2005|01:46 pm]
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Im gonna talk as if it was today even though it was yeserday. Well today was a very long day. That remind me I gotta do my learning log :p but anyways. It started out normal day then at 5:00 PM it changed drastically. Soon I was over at the College watching the presentation on biotech for extra credit. It was free food too so no way you can resist. But then at 7:00 PM Ashley, Adam, Jerom, and me went to Adams house though I dont know exactly why but we did. Lmfao on the way we were playing "sex" just for giggles and laughs. Jerom was getting his butt kicked he had to take of three things. I got stuck with taking off my shoes. I was hanging them out the window just cause it felt good. But then we got to Adams house and we went down to his basement just to look around. I guess we were taking tours of people homes.
Anyways Adam has a stapler hanging from his ceiling and being human I grabbed it and well it bites back with a nasty shock. Well then after a while of talking about Adams room we go sit down on the couches and just start talking about what stupid things they have done. I.E. ashley and her gay brother having a party and everyone else drinking but her, then there was Jerom and his car ride story of a roman candle blowing up in his car and his passenger seat going on fire. They mentioned what they done. I felt so alone because I had not done any of them nor will I ever plan to. I felt so out of place that second because i stated "Im a complete virgin to everything, never had a kiss, never had sex, never done drugs". I dunno but from a spiritual stand point I felt so low.
But as they started to talk I just zoned off and started to pet the dog. I dunno but I guess I never wana be put in that situation thats why I am afraid of staying with Ashley but I dunno its a pull that I feel that I should stick around just incase someting bad happens and she needs help though I dont think I will be in my right mind when that moment happens. I thought by being a good example I could try to see how devoted to not doing any drugs... was but it is not as strong as I had hoped. Well anyways we leave Adams house after talking to his mom who is a really nice person. But then we go to pick up Jeroms friend from camp Williams because he had an interview and he needed a ride. Well on our way up we kind of really played "sex" and well me and Adam were in the back
just nailing every car that we see go by that either had dim lights or no light. After a while me and adam had got about 5 on ashley and I had one on me. Ashley got down to her sweat shirt, pants and underwear. For some reason she took off everything under her sweatshirt. But my heart was pounding then because part of me wanted to see her naked, but what sanity was left in me told me to just look out the window and watch all the cars go by. Well I did both but Ashley quit from the game and me and Adam weren't gonna play against each other because well thast just not right. We start talking about crap all the way up the mountain though I can't rem any of it because I was zoning out because the trees were more interesting. When we got up there in the camp, me and Jerom left to go find his friend. Ashley was
trying to pull Adam out of the car or something around there abouts dunno why though. We accidentally interupt a meeting that was going on. Then we walk back down and find his friend wandering around and Adam and Ashley saw him and I guess grabbed him or someting like that. On the ride home Adam was gonna take over and drive but Jerom decided to wait till we were out of the mountain. Just so u know getting stuck in teh back with two boys just doesn't look right. Well we have to stop at the gas station so that Adam can switch and so Ashley could get some tylonel because she had a headache I guess at about 7 each night she gets one. She took like 20 minutes trying to swallow 2 pills I kept grabbing them out of her hand because she was just holding them up in the middle. We start telling stories then Ashley
just had to bring up how I had taken notes on my brother and sister-in-law making out of the couch. I did it just to annoy them but everyone thinks that I did it just so i could learn and we get back to the parking lot to switch off cars so that Adam can go home. Though it took him like 20 minutes to finnaly leave to go home. But Adam and Jerom had to go to take a piss so they start heading towards someone elses car and then decide to go run behind ashleys car and pee on it. Adam went under the car and well Jerom he decided to be an azz and did it right on the rear tire. Then as soon as they were done they ran up to the front of the car to see who had won and well Jerom won by a long shot. It was so nasty and yet ashley was busy of the phone so we just walked over and talked for a bit.
We each jump in our seperate cars I jumped in ashleys Jerom and his friend in his char and adam left to go home. On the ride to manda's house it was so quite me and her didn't even speak just listening to the radio. manda was sneaking out of the house because she had been grounded for staying out to late or someting I was told but I can't rem. Anyways she jumps in and they just start talking about Jerom's friend I think and well I think they were describing him in navajo though I dont know if that is what they were talking about but it seemed so. Manda can not hold still though she is really a cluts she cant just sit in the back of the car and not fall over. We show up and Jeroms house and we get a tour of his home. Ashley and Manda wanted to see the bath tub so they go up and show him. We stick ashley in a closet
She seemed to like it in there dunno why. Anyways im making this really long so I'll just do a short summary now. We go to blockbuster jerom driving and grab Electra and another movie to watch. Then we head back and watch it. Jeroms friend fell asleep at the very end. After having watched that we said good bye and left so they took me home Ashley was telling me that I shoudl jsut tell them the truth from the start its just so much easier than trying to remember all the lies so I decided its just a whole lot easier even though my parents are like hers. They drop me off there wasn't any Garbage cans outside for her to hit. So I just say bye and thanks and go in the house she was saying how much trouble she is gonna get in now. But I walk in and Carlos(bro-in-law) is sitting on the couch watching DBZ I think and well
he was wondering where I went so i just tell him ive been all the way across teh valley in both ways. He just laughs and says good night. I walk upstairs and start banging on the door and my parents are jsut snoring so they can't hear me so I start saying "hello anyone in there!!!" They still dont answer so I walk in my room and grab a penny because my parents have a cheap door nob and I open it and see them sleeping the blanket half way off the bed so i decide ill just go back out and lock and just bang harder on the door this time. My mom finnaly wakes up and my dad is dead asleep. She says to come in so I unlock and walk in and sit on the edge of the bed. She asks where I have been so i tell her and she falls back asleep, then she wakes up for a sec then asks how long ago I got home and I say 20 minutes(it was 12:50).
I tell her that it had been 10 minutes talking to lance and 10 minutes banging on your door to wake u up. Shes dead asleep again so I just walk out and go to sleep. Well theres my story :p kinda long but hey its not for someone to read unless they wana then you can call them legally bored out of their mind. I felt so scared this entire night that I would regret doing something bad I so wanted to say "can you take me home" But I was too afraid and well I kept going along with the crowd.
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