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Why is this so upsetting? It's not like it's a big deal. Not at all. And evens so it bugs me. I was waiting all day for it because to be quite honest my day sucked. And you forgot. My best friend remembered of course and even reminded you. All you did was say "oh" though. It really isnt that big a deal. Its so stupid of me to be making such a big deal out of it and even writing it down. but I just cant help it. I feel like we arent as close as we were a few days ago. And its only been a few days!! We barely ever hang out anymore and you never answere your phone. Now I just feel like im the most annoying creature on the face of the earth to you. I dont want to be that. Not to you. I could probably deal with it if it was someone else. But defenatly not you. And you probably didnt do it on purpose or anything. God I hope not but it still hurt me. and the way I reacted was kinda scary. I just yelled at you all sarcastically and it was funny. but I was crying on the inside. just a little because I didnt have time to take it all in. When I did I was almost crying.I felt horriable. Did I do something wrong? Do you just hate me now? I just wanna know. I dont want you to lie about it to me. Just tell me if I disgust you or annoy you. It will just hurt so much more if you lie to me about it.