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Tears of mistake fall into your hands
I tell you 'let them go' but you won't know where they land
You shouldn't worry about that anyhow
All you really need to worry about is here right now

You shouldn't worry about tomorrow
You should worry about today
Who really cares what happens anyways

When you worry about tomorrow
You waste your life away
Why worry about tomorrow
When you should worry about today
No one worries about the past anyways

The words of my true friends
I can never follow
Because worry takes over me.
Like a monster.

If only I can make it go away
A permanant solution.
Death?
No...that would be slapping god in the face.
If only I can rewind time.

Or maybe i need confidence.
How can I be confident in something i know i failed?
How is this whole poem about a dang test?
Because my parents put pressure on me.

"If you get bad grades i will basically disown you"
Wow, thanks for the pep talk.
How can I achieve anything with parents like that.
I can't study with worry in my mind.
Havent you seen those shows?
Nerds are so confident!
Not that i want to be a nerd of course
But i want that confidence!

I wish I could show my parents this.
Maybe...
When the results come.
I'll hide myself in the bathroom
Escaping their glares.
And giving them this poem.

Its summer right now.
And im worrying like hell.
Thanks for wasting my summer, stupid star test.

I want my parents to know that i love them.
But its too much
Too much for me to bear.