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I am so tired right now, I could just cry. lol I don't want to cry, though. I feel almost at peace. I think I've finally laid it to rest. I can leave the frustration and resentment behind.

It chafes, being forced into a tiny box, someone else's definition of what you are. And you stay stuffed in there so long that it seems as if it's the truth. Someone just arbitrarily decides that you are this, this and that and, by God and all the heavens above, that's what you're going to be. And they shall react as if you are what they have defined you to be. Offense and outrage and confusion shall follow any deviation from the path laid out before you. rofl

Free at last, free at last. Thank you God, I am free at last.

Though I do, at times, wonder what that last PM said. xd Not enough to find out, though.

AAaaaAAAAAaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAnnnnd.....

You can take your 11th man and cram him up your a**. What kind of dumbass actually wants an 11th man? Seriously? Really? o.O You deserve the trouble they bring.

"Oh, look at exhibit A! He's nuttier than a ********' fruitcake! But I loves him! Oh, look at exhibit B! He's nuttier than a ********' NUTBAR ******** belongs in a goddamn looney bin, dudes with butterfly nets are en route to take his a** back! I LOOOOOVES HIM!

But I learned. Neither one of them is for me, right? So, here, look at exhibit C! He looks just like exhibit B and acts just like exhibit A!!!! I neeeeed this guy! ******** yeah!"

(year's worth of drama in an nutshell. Not my drama. Just my dramatic reinterpretation xD)
God be with you, young lady. You've got a lot of growing up to do, a lot of learning and a lot of hurting yet to do. Maybe you'll make it, maybe you won't. I personally don't give a rat's a**. Best of luck to you and yours.