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my being now complicated, as well as my soul is troubled... will my head ever be cleared as it once was? oh so long ago... my heart was light. care free. now it burdens me... always being twisted every which way... chains bind me, like an invisible force. drawing them closer around my neck. smothering me. killing me... my heart is in a foreign place, of misery and confusion... come home.. i whisper. as my body lays on a cold unforgiving floor. lifeless, as my sanity seems to fade far away. i start to decintigrate. my dreams become nightmares, of the most horrid of sorts. nightmares of past things, and sorrow. over whelming me. waking me up to the point of breaking into a cold sweat. waking screaming, longing for you... but your far away. i cannot reach you. your are gone from my sight... gone from my arms... my mind slips away. this shattered psyche being eaten by an unknown monster. breathing hard. and slipping further... deeper darker... my mind goes. can no one save me from such an agonizing fate? dying, and being troubled by the world even more. even though you are still alive. we seem even more apart then ever.. please save me. desperately clawing away from the darkness. but the grasp of it. takes me further. over whelming me in this wretched pitch. spiralling further more... gone from existence, now more than ever.