June 14th, Chronicles 1 六月十四日、歴代氏一 TOPIC: After School
So. After I finish high school. I don't even know.
I don't know if I'm going to college or not. I have about two years to decide. I'm a Sophomore next year, so I guess I have options still open. The problem is, I love everything. Language, religion, philosophy, literature, history, culture, geography of all sorts, cartography, linguistics, graphic design, art, acting, drawing... I want it all.
I can't have it all.
Miharu-chan and I one day decided that I should be a double major: graphic design and anthropology. That actually seems to be quite a likely possibility, depending on how good I can get at graphics. I gotta get my tablet first, though. We'll see.
I like to create things. Part of why graphic design seems to fit me as a person. But I also like learning things. Mainly things about culture. I'm in love with culture.
My favorite cultures (which I still have a lot to learn about) would be those from the Middle East, India, and Japan. I don't know why, but I feel compelled to learn their ways and speak their languages.
The languages I want to learn by the end of high school:
Japanese, Hindi, Arabic, Turkish, Spansish (halfway there!), and maybe German. I'm not insane, I promise you.
Maybe a little bit.
Anyway, back to being a double major. First, I'd study graphic design. College? I'm thinking San Francisco. I've been thinking about the Bay for... a year? Longer? New York is a possibility, though. Shopping, big-city life, cultural immersion... It sounds wonderful.
Anthropology or something similar would come after that. Probably when I'm in my mid thirties. Then I'd travel all over the world, being an expert on Japan and India and the Middle East. Turkey, too. I'd write books, maybe even a book on one of the languages. It'd be great.
That's what I'm planning on doing. But I just gotta keep remembering...
It's all success if it's what you need. Do what you like, and do it honestly.
(My secret ambition forever and always: to be a voice actor for anime and video games. Shh. Don't tell anyone! Unless you know someone that can get me a gig.)
So. After I finish high school. I don't even know.
I don't know if I'm going to college or not. I have about two years to decide. I'm a Sophomore next year, so I guess I have options still open. The problem is, I love everything. Language, religion, philosophy, literature, history, culture, geography of all sorts, cartography, linguistics, graphic design, art, acting, drawing... I want it all.
I can't have it all.
Miharu-chan and I one day decided that I should be a double major: graphic design and anthropology. That actually seems to be quite a likely possibility, depending on how good I can get at graphics. I gotta get my tablet first, though. We'll see.
I like to create things. Part of why graphic design seems to fit me as a person. But I also like learning things. Mainly things about culture. I'm in love with culture.
My favorite cultures (which I still have a lot to learn about) would be those from the Middle East, India, and Japan. I don't know why, but I feel compelled to learn their ways and speak their languages.
The languages I want to learn by the end of high school:
Japanese, Hindi, Arabic, Turkish, Spansish (halfway there!), and maybe German. I'm not insane, I promise you.
Maybe a little bit.
Anyway, back to being a double major. First, I'd study graphic design. College? I'm thinking San Francisco. I've been thinking about the Bay for... a year? Longer? New York is a possibility, though. Shopping, big-city life, cultural immersion... It sounds wonderful.
Anthropology or something similar would come after that. Probably when I'm in my mid thirties. Then I'd travel all over the world, being an expert on Japan and India and the Middle East. Turkey, too. I'd write books, maybe even a book on one of the languages. It'd be great.
That's what I'm planning on doing. But I just gotta keep remembering...
It's all success if it's what you need. Do what you like, and do it honestly.
(My secret ambition forever and always: to be a voice actor for anime and video games. Shh. Don't tell anyone! Unless you know someone that can get me a gig.)
Music:
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Well, I was going to go on an insane ranting spree about pretty much EVERYTHING. But I started cussing a shitload, and it got me to thinking that could get me in trouble with some near and dear people, so I decided not to post it. ;P Your loss.
My favorite band since I've been 8 years old is Green Day. Even when I start feeling like they suck, I have to keep them as my favorite band because that's something special. I'm sure you can relate. Probably to an anime, or a video game, or a book. But yeah. Green Day's my favorite band forever and ever, whether I like it or not. But Billie Joe's hot, so I'm content.
I also love Papa Roach. Jacoby Shaddix is the shiz. He's hotter than Billie Joe, and that's saying something when it comes outta my mouth. Or fingers, in this case. But yeah, I love Coby. If I ever had to like, transfer schools because it turns out one of you is stalking me, I'd either go by Jacoby or Kiyo. Because my real name is a fail.
So I'm a strong Pop-boycotter. But I love Lady GaGa. I'm strange. I also kinda like Britney Spears, but if it's something like Leona Lewis, or Miley Cyrus, or... Jordin Sparks... Or Kelly Clarkson... I want to tear my ears out. Yeah, doesn't make much sense, but nothing really does anymore, does it?
J-Pop is one of my favorite genres definately. I get most of my J-Pop from anime OPs, though, so I'm pretty into UVERworld, Aqua Timez, Hikaru Utada, YUI, that kinda thing...
I am one of those people who absolutely LOVE My Chemical Romance. But they're better material came BEFORE The Black Parade. Same goes with Green Day and Papa Roach. Green Day was better BEFORE American Idiot, and Papa Roach was better BEFORE Metamorphosis. The Paramour Sessions or Lovehatetradgedy was their better album.
Rap.... I honestly think it's a load of crap. Every other word is ********. Is that the kind of motivation I want to hear? Oh hell no. Rap is a load of cRAP. Can't spell cRAP without RAP. Though I ain't gonna lie. I like Eminem. I have respect for him.
I'm kind of into oldies music. It's not on my iPod or anything, but if my dad's listening to it (he 34, WTF?!?!?!) then I'm content. Country is okay, too..... I used to hate it, but I've kind of grown a respect for it. And I'm not just talking Garth Brooks or something here, or Tim McGraw. I mean... Willy Nelson, Chuck-Old-Dude-I've-Never-Heard-Of-Wilson. That kinda stuff with like a banjo, stuff you'd expect to see a dude in a covered wagon to be playing or something. I respect it. Embrace it.
I like German trance. I think German's a very pretty language, and you idiots who can't see that are... idiots.
I'm not a fan of Spanish/Mexican music, though. I think it sounds kinda gross. Argentinian music is nice, though.
Arabic and Turkish music is BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE it. That's all I have to say about it.
Well, I've bored you enough. Get outta here, go get a life. You probably don't have one if you're listening to me rant. &.& Shoo.
I'd like to start off this blog by saying you're probably wondering where all the pictures of me went. I took them down. Too many creepy, random people I don't like or know friending me or sending me random PMs. :& It was scary. So I took them down. If you want to see me, PM, and I'll link you if I like ya'. Don't be scared. o3o If you're on my friends list, you're allowed. Except Shadow. -Snicker-
RELATIONSHIPS. Egad. I've always felt that at this young age, relationships are pointless. Most people don't stay with their high school sweetheart. And if they do, they're angry and bitchy and get a divorce in their 30's. Hell, most FRIENDS in high school don't stay friends after graduating. So I'm a pessimist, saying dating at this young age is... useless.
But this doesn't mean I have the ability to resist hormones and fate. xD I crush on guys all the time. Usually the ones that SHOULDN'T be crushed on. I'm talking... senior guys. Oh, how cliche. But that's life. And if they aren't seniors, they're guys that are pissed off at the world more than I am! They're probably wife-beaters. Am I off topic? Eh... oh well.
I have never been on a date before. By now, you're probably laughing your a** off saying, "Cuz you're ugly!" HEY, BUDDY, YOU WANNA-- Oh, wait... I took my pictures down! DAMN. So I guess now you'll never see how wrong you are. I ain't saying I'm a Megan Fox (who isn't that pretty, by the way), but I'm no awkward turtle who don't brush her hair and wears make up like a 3 year old. Anyway, back to the dating thing... I've never been on a date before. I've rejected every guy who's ever asked me out. Which I must say, is a short list. I think I've had 4? Oh, and one girl. xDD
Point being, I'm a rejecter because I don't see the relationship ever having hope or working out. Is that depressing?
EVEN WORSE, I am a bit of flirt. -Nod- I can't help it. I ain't gonna go up to a guy and feel him up, but I do flirt. Mainly with words. I'm good with words. Funnier yet, I still flirt even though my self-confidence is down-under. My self-confidence SUCKS. I mean, I have enough to beat somebody up, but not enough to wear a skirt, or even a pair of shorts.
Okay, that's DEFINATELY off topic.
All in all, I'm pessimistic when it comes to dating. I've rejected anyone who's ever asked me out, including one girl. I'm attracted to older guys, or guys with serious mental issues. (Not always serious, but the issues are there. Maybe because I want to help them?) I have shitty self-confidence in nearly everything I do, yet I still manage to flirt with guys using words.
Egad. I'm doomed to be a fat old lady with 24 cats (one for each hour of the day! 8D), living alone in a cabin in the country-side. DO YOU KNOW HOW ALLERGIC I AM TO CATS?!
RELATIONSHIPS. Egad. I've always felt that at this young age, relationships are pointless. Most people don't stay with their high school sweetheart. And if they do, they're angry and bitchy and get a divorce in their 30's. Hell, most FRIENDS in high school don't stay friends after graduating. So I'm a pessimist, saying dating at this young age is... useless.
But this doesn't mean I have the ability to resist hormones and fate. xD I crush on guys all the time. Usually the ones that SHOULDN'T be crushed on. I'm talking... senior guys. Oh, how cliche. But that's life. And if they aren't seniors, they're guys that are pissed off at the world more than I am! They're probably wife-beaters. Am I off topic? Eh... oh well.
I have never been on a date before. By now, you're probably laughing your a** off saying, "Cuz you're ugly!" HEY, BUDDY, YOU WANNA-- Oh, wait... I took my pictures down! DAMN. So I guess now you'll never see how wrong you are. I ain't saying I'm a Megan Fox (who isn't that pretty, by the way), but I'm no awkward turtle who don't brush her hair and wears make up like a 3 year old. Anyway, back to the dating thing... I've never been on a date before. I've rejected every guy who's ever asked me out. Which I must say, is a short list. I think I've had 4? Oh, and one girl. xDD
Point being, I'm a rejecter because I don't see the relationship ever having hope or working out. Is that depressing?
EVEN WORSE, I am a bit of flirt. -Nod- I can't help it. I ain't gonna go up to a guy and feel him up, but I do flirt. Mainly with words. I'm good with words. Funnier yet, I still flirt even though my self-confidence is down-under. My self-confidence SUCKS. I mean, I have enough to beat somebody up, but not enough to wear a skirt, or even a pair of shorts.
Okay, that's DEFINATELY off topic.
All in all, I'm pessimistic when it comes to dating. I've rejected anyone who's ever asked me out, including one girl. I'm attracted to older guys, or guys with serious mental issues. (Not always serious, but the issues are there. Maybe because I want to help them?) I have shitty self-confidence in nearly everything I do, yet I still manage to flirt with guys using words.
Egad. I'm doomed to be a fat old lady with 24 cats (one for each hour of the day! 8D), living alone in a cabin in the country-side. DO YOU KNOW HOW ALLERGIC I AM TO CATS?!
Physical Appearances:
I think the way you look is pretty important. And I'm NOT talking about relationships or any of that crap. Why? Cuz love is blind.
WHAT I MEAN IS.... the way you look can tell a LOT about your personality. Or not. I'm talking about really subtle things. Like if you have long or short nails. That'll tell if you're lazy, or if you wear gloves (doing yardwork, etc.).
For example: the black half of my hair is a symbol. Shows how I'm into "yin-yang" things. It also represents how I'm at extremes. One minute I'm laughing, the next I am crying. One second, I may be pissed -- the next, I'll be laughing and having a good time. I might be nice for a moment, but the next, I'll be calling you a whiny b***h and telling you to gtfo. It happens. But it's true. Now you know why my hair is two different colors. It's a sign.
I hate it when people try to change their eye color, or do plastic surgery. It's fake. It's not natural. DON'T DO IT. Dying your hair is okay, getting a tan is okay (AS LONG AS YOU DON'T LOOK ORANGE). But wearing contacts (unless they're to help you see) and s**t and looking fake really tells that you're a wannabe. Don't do it.
Here's a secret: I used to LONG for blue eyes. My dad has the prettiest blue eyes. A boy I had a crush on for six years (and I am ashamed -- he's the biggest a*****e I know) also had gorgeous cerulean eyes, and I therefore wanted blue eyes, too. There were also a bunch of other reasons I wanted blue eyes -- mainly because I was afraid Hitler's ghost would try to kill me for not having blue eyes. o.e;
Anyway, I really used to want to have blue eyes. Then it changed that I wanted GREEN eyes. "Blue eyes? Pfft, everyone has them, stfu." My best friend had/has green eyes. And so I decided I wanted those.
WELL GUESS WHAT? IT DIDN'T WORK. Wishing for a certain eye color ain't gonna change it.
But you know what? I finally accepted my eyes. I realized how absolutely beautiful they are in their own way. No, I'm not blond, blue-eyed, tall, thin. But I feel like I have gorgeous golden hazel colored eyes. (picture below)
It just takes a little getting out of the shadows and into the light to show their true gold.
Don't be afraid.
If you don't like the way you look, don't try to change it. Don't be fake. Don't become something you're not, something you hate, something you said you never wanted to be.
Accept it, respect it, embrace what you hate about yourself.
Simply because.... you're beautiful.
WHAT I MEAN IS.... the way you look can tell a LOT about your personality. Or not. I'm talking about really subtle things. Like if you have long or short nails. That'll tell if you're lazy, or if you wear gloves (doing yardwork, etc.).
For example: the black half of my hair is a symbol. Shows how I'm into "yin-yang" things. It also represents how I'm at extremes. One minute I'm laughing, the next I am crying. One second, I may be pissed -- the next, I'll be laughing and having a good time. I might be nice for a moment, but the next, I'll be calling you a whiny b***h and telling you to gtfo. It happens. But it's true. Now you know why my hair is two different colors. It's a sign.
I hate it when people try to change their eye color, or do plastic surgery. It's fake. It's not natural. DON'T DO IT. Dying your hair is okay, getting a tan is okay (AS LONG AS YOU DON'T LOOK ORANGE). But wearing contacts (unless they're to help you see) and s**t and looking fake really tells that you're a wannabe. Don't do it.
Here's a secret: I used to LONG for blue eyes. My dad has the prettiest blue eyes. A boy I had a crush on for six years (and I am ashamed -- he's the biggest a*****e I know) also had gorgeous cerulean eyes, and I therefore wanted blue eyes, too. There were also a bunch of other reasons I wanted blue eyes -- mainly because I was afraid Hitler's ghost would try to kill me for not having blue eyes. o.e;
Anyway, I really used to want to have blue eyes. Then it changed that I wanted GREEN eyes. "Blue eyes? Pfft, everyone has them, stfu." My best friend had/has green eyes. And so I decided I wanted those.
WELL GUESS WHAT? IT DIDN'T WORK. Wishing for a certain eye color ain't gonna change it.
But you know what? I finally accepted my eyes. I realized how absolutely beautiful they are in their own way. No, I'm not blond, blue-eyed, tall, thin. But I feel like I have gorgeous golden hazel colored eyes. (picture below)
It just takes a little getting out of the shadows and into the light to show their true gold.
Don't be afraid.
If you don't like the way you look, don't try to change it. Don't be fake. Don't become something you're not, something you hate, something you said you never wanted to be.
Accept it, respect it, embrace what you hate about yourself.
Simply because.... you're beautiful.
OMFFGGGGG LIEV SCHREIBERRR!!!!
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OMFG! So. Liev Schreiber. Lee-ev Shr-eye-ber. HOT. -Drool- So hot.... Yeah. This one's pretty much just me obsessing over him. *-* I wish I were as hot as him, in my own female way of course.. -Cough-
But yeah. He's 6'3''! I LOVE TALL GUYS. OMFGOMFGOMFG. He has gorgeoussss blue eyes, and a New Yorker accent. 8D Hot hot hot.
In case you didn't know, he's an actor. Here he is, just being himself.
Sexxxayyyy. But not as sexy as Victor Creed...... No.... Here's a pic of Liev shirtless. ;D
Okay, so maybe that's pushing it... o.e; Er, but I still think he's hot.
So first up: Liev Schreiber as Michael Keppler in CSI! Omfg. I loved the part where he slammed Ricky's head on the table. It made me LOL. Here's Michael Keppler.
Next up: Zus Bielski. I LOVED THE MOVIE DEFIANCE. It was about the Holocaust, and Zus and his brother Tuvia saved 1200 people and LIVED! Zus was super badass. He was really pissed because his wife was murdered, so he pretty much went around shooting Nazis and some of the Red Army with a machine gun. <3
Lastly, Victor Creed. He's from X-Men. He's Wolverine's half-brother, but he's all bloodthirsty (jeez, what's with all the bloodthirsty brothers? xD) and Logan doesn't like it, so they turn on each other and constantly battle for top-dog. Or cat, in this case. Also, Victor is SUPER PISSED about how Logan got adamantian put in him, and he didn't. He was jealoussss.
-Drool-
:D Sorry about the size, but he's hot, so it's okay.
Omfg.
Wish I had me some claws like that.
DO I MAKE MY POINT CLEAR?! No. Not yet.
THIS ONE MAKES ME LMFAO SO FRICKIN BAD.
-Passes out- Okay.... Now my point's clear.... x.o; So yes. This week was all about me ranting about Liev Schreiber. His wife is one lucky woman.....
But I still say he's mine. ;D
