Where did I go wrong?
I thought she was there.. well I had no one else..
If I wouldn't of told her.. the things I did..
Maybe it was for the better... I probably would be dead..
with the monsters hitting me with their words--
no one to lean on, so I went to her.
crying alone...
I Didn't have you; so I told her.
I told her everything--
about a boy, about myself, and mom, about my life, and dreams, about my secrets, and pleas..
But she just broke me..
and it hurt--
like a nerve in my heart; was cracked in two!
why do I feel hurt? when I know...
I know; it wasn't my fault?
wait.. right?
it wasn't me that made her this way; with the things I told her... about how I would stay.
I made her hope--
but then I left..
I left first right? because I didn't want to fess ?
I didn't want to say she was annoying; or say I felt used...
so I stayed along; well for a little.
than I fell in your arms--
I trusted you; with all my heart!
and I still do... I trust you--
but would you turn like her? say things bad about me?
turn on me? when you think I've turned on you?
I hope you never do--
I love you; I loved her once...
now I just want to die; die of sorrow- die of shame--
die without giving myself a chance to hurt- ...you or him. or her. or them...
or us?
I'm sorry--
I just need... to hear it's not my fault.
right? it's not right?
it wasn't me who made her think this way?
that doing stuff bad is the.. right way?
Or is it me? should I confess?... I will die anyway...
I just need to hear-- "it will be ok!"
because my life is going---
One way... and it's the bad way...
life is to hard...
It was getting better!!
but then she came.. she cried... she begged for a friend..
so I let her in- in my life- my soul- my heart- .. my head--
know I here her cries.. and her screams!
what do I do? --
to make the demons; stop... end... cease... fade... vanish...
withdraw... evaporate... fade away... cease to exist?
Wolf Memories · Wed May 26, 2010 @ 05:20am · 0 Comments |