It's weird to have these feelings. I'm so crazy head over heals for this boy. He makes me feel like nothing I've ever felt before. I know, I'm young and most 18 year olds say that. But, I truly deeply mean it. The funny thing is I've never actually met him. My friend has. But I only know him over the internet and phone. If my friend hadn't met him, I probably wouldn't have given him a second thought. Everything about him is so wonderful. He is so sweet, loving, honest. He calls me beautiful every time we talk. I'm always smiling when we talk. I tried once to not smile when I got a text from him, but it didn't work. The smile forced it's way out. My heart pounds. Everything stops. It's seems like a real fairy tale. I can see myself with him 30 years from now. I know he really truly loves me. Matthew loved me, wanted something I wasn't ready to give. James loved me, but was possessive. Matt really loved me, but wasn't ready for a real relationship. Anthony...I know he liked me, but I don't think he loved me as he claimed. But Tre, he's willing to wait. He's no where near possessive. He's ready for a relationship, and he loves me so much more than I deserve. It's hard to imagine that he could love me despite everything. He talks about our future, about our kids, where we will live, and how we'll grow old together. I think about it, dream about it all the time. He's the real deal. The way he makes me feel is crazy. We connect with so much. I can actually be myself and not be afraid of being rejected, of getting my heart broken for the trillionth time. I have never felt so free before. I love him so much. I can't wait to start our lives together. I get so excited at the thought of having his kids in my belly. I mean, I'm in no hurry to have kids, but just the thought sends me into this mood I can't control. It's like my whole body is exploding with butterflies...it's like not just getting butterflies in your stomach but EVERYWHERE. It's so weird. I'm still trying to figure out how he does that to me...
Tre is amazing. He is one of those good guys. I firmly believe that I'm so very lucky that I have him. That he would chose to take the risk of having a long distance relationship with me. And it's a very long distance. =/ It majorly sucks. But I believe it's meant to be, so it will work out. biggrin
A very close friend of mine just recently got engaged. I noticed something a week and a half into planning [I'm maid of honor, well one of two].....I was not only planning her wedding, but I was also planning Tre's and mine. I laughed at the realization. Even though Tre and I talk all the time about getting married, he hasn't proposed yet [something I would prefer in person, not over myspace or in a text lol]. We all find it funny, but I do know I should slow down just a bit. Which I have done. I'm just so happy.
A New Beginning
The tears fell,
My heart broke.
The walls came up,
And then you spoke.
You wiped the tears away,
And glued my heart back.
The walls fell without effort,
Love you don't lack.
So I fell into your arms,
As you caught me with grace.
You brought back the light,
That sadly left this place.
I can't stop smiling,
As I think about you.
Your love, I can say, is
And always will be true.
---To Tre <3
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I'm Sakura, 19. Something I'll do when I can. I love to write poetry and I read when I can. I'm inbetween jobs, hoping to get one soon here in 'CopaTown. I want to start college and become a profeesional photographer.
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