Here's what's going on in my life. If you don't feel like feeling sad, click the back button.
1. School. Lot's of homework and a bit of theater stuff on the side (with a crappy teacher taking charge to boot)
2. My dad has lost his job. We will have no money after August when the severance pay runs out unless he can get his own business off the ground (and if you know someone who needs computer work done, please, please pm me)
3. My grandma (Nonnie) has retired. She has supported our family for years, bought a house so we could live in a decent place, took us places when she wasn't working, paying some of our bills when we were in a tight spot, etc, etc. She now has a fixed income. Add that to my dad losing his job, and you get a really scary situation.
4. My 13-year-old brother comitted a felony without realizing what he did. Everything he took was returned in perfect condition. But the other family of the kid who was supposed to be his 'friend' is making this into a huge mess. Imagine adding that to the above.
5. Nonnie had to go to the hospital for a few days. She's alright, but it was very unsettling.
6. My mom is a fill-in-any-derogitory-word-here. She's been having an affair. She's lied to us for years. She refused to listen to my dad when he told her we HAD to cut back because of the job situation. You know what she did? Spent 60 bucks on crap no one needed. My mom and dad are now separated. A divorce is very possible. She came home to drop off the van, I had to confront her on an issue, and you know what? She said nothing about the bruises on my face from my dental work. NOTHING.
7. I'm watching my family slowly fall apart
Yes, I know I'm ranting. Yes, I know some people have it worse. Yes, I know this probably isn't the type of thing to post here, but I have to get it out. I'm killing myself here. I'll never get so depressed that I would consider killing myself, but darnit, right now I wish I didn't exist. I need help, advice, encouragement, whatever you guys have to offer. I need to let go of everything or I'm going to lose it. I already can't consentrate on school, let alone anything else. Help me, please. I don't know what to do any more...
Mizuki Shiwahara Community Member 
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