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~*RaNdOm ThOuGhTs*~
I think im falling....

-sigh-
.....
ok...

so lately ive been having a really bad time..
in almost anything i do....
as much as i try...
i just cant seem to see the bright side of things anymore.

I get really angry at really stupid things,
I get depressed at just a few actions or words.
....i seem to be in a slump i cant get out of....
I feel soo worthless right now...
i really do.

i know it sounds stupid,
but i find myself crying a few times a day,
most of the time for no reason at all.

I went to the Dr, and he said its all in the mind
no, he didnt mean it like im insane,
but -shrugs-

i just dont know what to do anymore...

If this was two years ago,
i would cut and hurt myself anyway possible to try and make myself feel better...
it has been over a year and a half since i have hurt myself like that
and i really dont want to go back....
but its soooo hard to do right now....

....i know you are reading this
thinking
'...wtf...she is so stupid, annoying and lame
whyy am i wasting my time reading this s**t?'
For this i am sorry
i dont mean to waste your time with my stupid worthless life problems and thoughts...

I just need something or someone to help me get out of this slump....
i just need someone who really does care
and doesnt just pretend...

anyway...
sorry for wasting your time,
but if you took the time to read this, then thanx
please leave a comment =l

~Rii






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Psychotic Zombie
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commentCommented on: Mon Feb 22, 2010 @ 07:32am
i think what you have is depression i think.


commentCommented on: Mon Feb 22, 2010 @ 04:06pm
I know what you mean,sometimes i can get pretty down in the slumps too :/...But ya know i learned a while back that i'm only 18 and i got my whole life ahead of me...And the same advice could be said about you too, i mean jeebus you model lol if i could do that i would =] But unfortunatley i cant and im stuck with the one thing im good at (army) lol but im okay with that lol.... I'm not very good with my words and i apologize :/ Really all im trying to get across is that i care, idk about everyone else but i see you as a good friend i could laugh with and talk to when im down...So their are people who care about you, just remember that and keep your head up..And i promise in due time things will get better =]


Charlie: ...Did you ******** my mom?
Santa: Uhh..
Charlie: Did you ******** my mom, Santa Claus? Did you ******** my mom? Did you ******** her? DID YOU ******** MY ******** MOM? DID YOU ******** MY MOM, SANTA?
Mac: Charlie what the hell?

[Patrons in mall nearby start getting scared]

Charlie: DID YOU ******** ******** MY ******** MOM?!?!?! AHH!!! ('Starts to bite Santa's neck)

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I_Set_My_Exs_0n_Fire
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