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Friday, the best day ever.
In science, I talked to my crush. Not much of a crush though, I just thought he had a cute smile at the time bahaa.
Anyways~ I was sitting on a desk in the back of the room next to an empty desk.
THEN, all of a sudden, he pulls up a chair from the very front of the room, and sits next to me.
I didn't think much of it, thought he was just there because his friends were in front of me.
Well, if that was so, he didnt pay much attention to them, we ended up talking for the entire period.
At one point, he asked " So, you going to the Valentine's dance?"
I merely told him, there was not much reason for me to go, plus I predicted that I would be a pretty huge loner.
Then, he replied, "You never know, until you go."
At this, I was very confused. Did he want me to go? With him? Or not?
He also mentioned he was going to go too, but with his friends whom he promised to dance with.
I didn't know what to think, I would have loved to have gone, but I don't know what stopped me.
I think the fear of being dissapointed to see that he did not actually want me there.
I'm not sure, but if he did want me to go, then oh my god. I'd just die.
I'd feel awful, I'd feel apologetic and what not. I really hope he isn't dissapointed or anything.
But at this thought, I always think, who could like me? Am I out of my mind? He maybe just wanted to be kind or something. I am just the new girl after all.
Well, I do at least just wish to talk to him again..
Gah, I don't know what to do or think :[ This is driving me crazy.
I can't enjoy this three day weekend. Usually, the weekend goes by so fast, that I end up nearly crying hysterically, that's how much I really dread school.
Now, the weekend has dragged on and on and I have nothing to do, no one to talk to. Sigh. I guess I'll just read. Do homework and what not.