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I’m saddned now that you don’t care,
I’m crying but you’re no longer there.
I scream your name in the middle of the night,
But still, you are no where in sight.
You are my worst enemy and my closest friend,
Your being I would always defend.
I’d give my heart and soul if it meant to save yours,
But now after even that, I am only left with sores.
I toss and turn all night long,
Hearing your voice; singing a song.
I’m mentally dying, but I will never tell;
I’m always just ‘well’.
I smile at you when I want to cry,
I live for you when I want to die.
You keep me strong and you make me weak,
Still your company I always seak.
You make me whole and you make me fall apart,
Truly, you are a work of art.
You’re smearing all over me, making me a mess,
Still you are beautiful, none the less.
I admire you in all your glory,
But this is supposed to be my story.
Still somehow you always end up the main role,
You’re stealing my very soul.
I’m trying to hold on, but I don’t think you yet see,
Otherwise, why would you still break me?
My heart beat is slowing,
But still somehow my love is growing.
I know it seems impossible for it to grow any more,
But what can I say; you’ve struck me in the core.
Still every night I tend to scream, but still you are not there,
I’m crying out about how it’s not fair.
No one else knows of these secrets I keep,
But one day out they must seep.
Truth be told, I love you but I can’t explain,
You’re in the fast and I am in the slow lane.
I am trying to reach out and grab,
But you just push me away; into the heart; ‘stab’.
At night I still cry my tears of joy and sorrow,
Praying for a better tomorrow.
Better as in you will be there when I awake,
But these are simply dreams that are fake.
All I even asked for this year,
Is for you to be near.
I crave your touch and your voice,
If only we really had a choice.
I wish we could erase the past,
Then maybe…We wouldn’t be ‘over’ so fast…