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You see a me that I know is true
But There is another truth
That I am not all I seem
You see me
True
But Not everything
But Everything
How Can I Explain It?

I am the Alice and you are the looking glass,
looking in.
You cannot be me
You cannot EXPERIENCE ME

So when the clock is ticking away
Don't assume you know the poison
in each of the vials that I drink
Because
until you drink from them yourself
you cannot know what it was like

******** white rabbits...


-sigh- Just finished a major profile project. That took forever. It took like 4 to 5 hours to pull together. I forced it a bit but it's good because now I feel a release. I felt like something was blocking my air. I still feel a little suffocated but not so bad. ^^" I will get better in time. Time is the one thing I can't control.

I was wondering, are promises really made to be broken? How many promises have been broken to me? I know there are a lot... but can you remember? Would I really be damned so badly? WHY -holds head- It's killing me. My fingers are jittering out of control again. Always when I come to these issues. The double edged swords. I don't understand why people expect so much from me! I know some see potential but why does that mean I, out off people, get pushed to suceed. WHAT IF I WANT TO DO IT MY OWN WAY.. -screams in my mind- I don't understand, and that's what's killing me.

I get told if I don't tell that I'll get hit. But then I don't get told. I get told that if I say it again I will get hit but when I ask, they ignore. -shakes head- I don't understand. Life has got me down again...

I'm such an emo ********.