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have u eva had som1 u were so close 2? some1 u knew soo well dat it was as easy as talkin 2 ur self? som1 u luved so much u thought ud die witout? som1 u couldnt image not havin dere 4 u when u needed som1?or som1 dat knew u as well as they knew demself?
yea u kno som1 lik dat dont u? psh ur prob thinkin bout dem 2..yea its okayy we all kno som1 lik it, if we admit it or not..nd u kno u luv em even if dey did somtin stupid wouldnt u? yea u kno u would.. wink its okay i would 2..nd i have. have u lost em? have u got em bak??
would u feel lik cryin if dey said dat dey were doin betta off since yall stopped talkin?...wat would u do? would u jus sit there nd give up? stop livin ur life? or would u 4get em nd mak em want u again? thought soo...but it kant always go as expected u get friends nd u lose em nd it nvr hurts until u find a tru friend dat would do netin 4 u until u rlly feel da pain of the loss..ur otha half..u kant nvr 4get em nd u kno u dont want 2 cuz i kno i dont want 2 nd im not gonna ima live it up nd do wat i do nd c if he wants2 come bak if he does then he does but if he dont then he dont.. i kant control any of em nd i think i prob wouldnt want2 cuz its hard enough already dont u think????
have u eva lost som1 important2 u? cuz if u have den u kno wat im talkin bout nd u kno it sux dont it... but wat if was ova somtin as stupid as a lil party? wouldnt dat suck?? wat if they jus completely blocked u out? nd ignored u nd then blamed u 4 it all wouldnt u say screw it?? jus walk away/ or is dat da wrong thing 2 do? wat if u waited 4 em. gave them every possible oppertunity 2 say somtin netin 2 u....how long would u stay up @ nite wonderin if yall would talk da nxt day hopin yall would talk?? wat would u do? how would u solve it?? stopp throwin parties? stop bin who u r 2 get e bak? stay urself nd hope? wat would u do? how far would u go? how long would u wait? b4 u stop hopin stop believin stop trustin nd completly give up..completely shut down..keep hidin ur feelings?..keep puttin up a show2 keep othas happy??...
wat i wanna kno is how long..how much..wat would u do...b4 u comletely had 2 give up...nd wat did u lose in da process of it all??nd how much did they mean 2 u...wat did they mean 2 u??

Still da sam 1 u kno nd luv
PIP PIP TA TA CHERIO GOOD BYE!!!
U kno U luv Me!!
the 1 nd only
K.C.
Cassie