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I've gotta get this off my chest. Not that anyone will ever read this journal entry, but I need to say it. I am so ******** tired of being happy one minute, then homesick the next. I miss all my ******** friends. I miss my home. I'm worried about Kaylo because he's disappeared off the face of the Earth, probably literally. I miss Tate and all of his goofiness/seriousness. I miss Ryann the way she was before I left. She and I were so close, then some dumb boy got in the way. I miss Sparks High and the GREAT educational system. I miss the snow. I miss the good weather. I miss Mr. Bryant who taught me what it means to golf. I miss golfing. I miss my old house. I miss my idiotic friends that fought with me over stupid things than laughed with me over random subjects like french toast and big toes. I miss the library. The one out here is completely crappy. I miss Dei-chan and all of her wackiness. I wish I had never moved. I wish I had never dated Henry. I wish my uncle and aunt had left my family the hell alone. The only thing I don't regret, is falling for Conner. But I loathe that I have to leave him at the end of next year. ********! I hate that I cry when I'm upset. I hate that I let things build up before I deal with them. I hate that I am so homesick. My life is great. Close to perfect. My heart and soul still seem to be in turmoil. Not that this entry has made me feel any better, but it has organized my thoughts.