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Friday The 13th. The WORST day of my life. By The way..My name is Whitney if you did not know.. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i dunno i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: im feeling kind of confused right now I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: About? i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: well, i dunt want to talk about it, but i know im gonna have to , so yeah I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: HM. What can't you talk to ME about? Then he typed for a while... i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i love you VERY much, and i wish i could be there with you, but i cant, and even though i love you, i want to see other people...... i know i told you you wouldnt have to worry....and it was true, i havent FOUND anybody, but, i just dont want to do this, because its making me depressed, and its been doing the same to you alot, and i dont want to do that to you....mmmm i feel like total st doing i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: this to you babe, but i dont want to do this long distance relationship thing anymore i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says:** im so sorry.............. Wow. This hurts. I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: Why are you doing this to me? i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: im sorry, i am, i swear it I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: I thought I could trust you. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: you can, its not like im cheating on you i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: im being completely honest, im telling you everything i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i swear What..? Not cheating on me? You want to SEE other people, retard! I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: You WANT to see other people. Oh Brandon. I'm such an idiot..I can't believe I believed you. All the stuff you said was LIES? Everything? i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: no....it wasnt all of it was TRUE babe, i love you, but the distance is the issue I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: It SHOULDN'T be an issue. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i want to be with you, and i cant, and thats what isnt working out for me Later.. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: its NOT that i love you any less, its that i cant see you, i cant hold you, and the only way i can talk to you is with THIS, or on the phone, and i want more, i WANT to hug you n stuff, but i cant, i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: that makes the difference i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: sigh i hate this, im so sorry, i am, i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i dun want to be another jerk in the world, but i guess i have no choice........ I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: But you're going to break up with me.. I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: I seriously thought.. I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: That you weer different.. I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: were i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says:* you know i dont want to, but ialso want a chance to meet some new people, like i said, i still LOVE you, and i always think about you, but i want to meet some people here, too i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: im sooo sorry Later.. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: you are not some fluke that is great at attracting assholes like me i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: sigh That's a lie.. I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: Why would distance matter? As long as I got to talk to you, I was ok. And you were PROBABLY going to visit, that made me happy. We were going to go to PROM... i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i feel so alone with you so far away...... And breaking up with me is supposed to help..? i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: sigh but i guess thats not right... Damn straight. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: omFg, i still want you, but i want to be WITH you, not split by like two hours worth of drive time AGAIN..Breaking up with me is supposed to help..HOW? I love you, Brandon But You Always Find A Way To Keep Me Right Here Waiting. says: Okay. I get that. BUT, why would you see other people? ANd my one freaking question that you are AVOIDING: Are you breaking up with me. i love you Whitney with all my heart of course says: i want to see other people because i dont want to be alone up here, and its not like its because i desperatley wnat sex or anything, i just want too, i want to meet new people, get to know them, and i think that if you want to look at it that way, yes im breaking up with you......... Friday The 13th. He broke up with me. And I want him back so bad that it hurts. Can someone explain to me..Why he would do this? He KNOWS how many bad relationships I have had..He KNOWS. I poured my HEART out to him. Told him my DEEPEST secrets. The MOST frightening moment in my life when I was little, almost raped.. And he does this. -cries- If Caitlyn hadn't been over when he did this, I would have killed myself.. I am tired of the pain. Tired of getting my heart shattered. And yet I still have hope that he will get back together with me. How can he LOVE me but wnat to SEE other people? THAT is what I don't get. God I am so sad...

Posted by: - The Depp Effect - Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 05:43pm

Make me a sign, and I will be so happy. emotion_bigheart

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CamelDejaVu
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Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 05:59pm

Omg...I'm so sorry....

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And I'm sorry I don't have much else to say, I've never been in a relationship, so I don't know how you're feeling right now, but it must be really crappy. gonk

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Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 07:03pm

In away this should be a good oportunity for you (in my opppinion)

I mean, if he had stayed with you that would have lead to secrets, lies, and conflicts. atleast this way you can start over new and learn from your experience.

<3 Don't feel bad... gonk

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Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 07:17pm

Hey, I am so sorry that this had to happen to you.

I'm never good with these things and on what to say, but in my opinion if he really did love you he wouldn't have broken up with you for that reason. Two hours distance is nothing at all, for 7 months I went out with someone that lived over 12 hours away and he never showed signs of wanting to break up. What happened was I was the one that broke up with him, and I basically said what Brandon said to you...
But I thought you two were doing great together, and I hope you two can work this out....but if not then I hope you can find someone else, much better than him. Someone that won't care about distance and someone that will treat you good. I wish you the best of luck with whatever happens next. And if you need someone to talk to I am here. Sorry if this wasn't the best, but it's all I could think of!

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Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 08:04pm

Depp, I don't think I can say anything to make you feel better, because I've never been through this sort of thing. I'm terribly sorry he did this, and I think he had other reasons behind it, he just didn't want to tell you them because he thought he would look like an idiot in front of you. Maybe he was too proud to admit that he really wanted to meet you, maybe he was scared if he went to your house, you guys would get to far ahead and he was afraid of what he might do, if you might ruin your life. I really don't know what to say, just, agrh. I wanna stab him right now. Really badly. Sorry I can't do anything to help sad I really wish I could, but I've never been through this before.... I'm, so sorry.

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Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 11:52pm

Psssssh. What a b***h. Yes, I call men bitches. D< ...That's like so stupid. TWO HOURS. If I was this idiot, I'd drive to you as much as possible, I mean like. :/ ..two hours?! ..that is, I swear, not a lot. There are like. 12 two hours in a day, so he should use his damn brain and do the math.

--:/ There must be like a slut or something using him. D: This reminds me of a song, "Men are wolves~" ..

u_u We women must stiick together, well. Not literally stick together, but share our feelings >_>;; As in time of hardships such as these..men aren't always the best people to go to..:U

I'm sorry if I've insulted him in a way you wouldn't like, or any other male...P: It's just true sometimes.

--BTW, I thought Depp was a guy. x_x; -hasn't talked to you in so long-

[--Koharu--]
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Tue Jan 17, 2006 @ 12:52am

Aww whitney... I don't know to what to say.
Just don't hurt yourself, okay? It'll be all right. One of these days, you're going to meet a big hunk of a chunk hottie that will be ten times better than him.
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I love you! heart heart

PM me when you get the chance, k? <333

STFU Becca
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Tue Jan 17, 2006 @ 10:58pm

Whit. I love you. You really don't deserve to go through all of this crap. You're my friend, and I love you with all my heart. <3 But, that probably doesn't mean much since I'm not a guy ... ? But whatever, I don't care, that doesn't stop me from loving you, and caring about you.

You're a great friend, I've always tried to help with the stuff you've been going through, but I haven't been doing such a good job with it. I'm sorry for that, and I'm sorry I can't be there right now, to help you, to tell you in person that it's going to be all right. And I guess I'll tell you the truth, I guess it's not going to be all right. You've been hurt I understand that. You've been hurt countless times, all by different people. You. Don't. Deserve. It.

You don't deserve ANY of it. You don't deserve being treated like crap by your friends, you don't deserve having a father like you do, you don't deserve having relationships that suck. You deserve what you put out, I think. And yo put out a hell of a lot more than some people with these .. FAIRYTALE relationships. They don't deserve something so wonderful, so great as something like that, when all you've gotten is crap back, and gotten stepped on. It's not right.

I'm not saying everyone's life is perfect, but goddamn, your life should be as close to perfect as it gets with all you've done. You're a great person Whitney, and I love you for it. I really, truly mean it. So what if most guys are assholes? You don't need a guy to be happy. You've got great friends that care about you, and that want to see you happy. Six who have posted before me. And I'm sure you've got good friends that live right around you, to be there for you when you really need it ...

I said it before twice in this post, but I don't care. I love you.

-- Becca

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