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I was just thinking if there was any way to find TRUE love in these times. My heart was completely shattered by someone I loved entirely. He just stopped loving me. Was that ever love to begin with? I know I loved him and still do but now I wish to horribly mutilate him and do worse to his new gf. I did nothing but show my love to him and now look where its gotten me. He was my everything, my world. With him rested my hopes and dreams. Now I have nothing. I know of two boys who care about me but they aren't him. I was willing to open up again after he left me and when I got with someone he too did the same thing. I tried but they didn't. I feel miserable all the time and can't even have "alone time" without bursting out in tears. I feel hopeless and I hurt myself. I feel suicidal but am too weak to DO anything. Is there truly no hope for the hopeless or have I finally cracked?


There's a new developement in this story! Because of the intense stress over this I have begun to stop producing eggs properly! If this continue's I may never have children. Max Virgal Rapp has RUINED me!!! crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying